My failed Attempt

[Jean4]

Yes, I had a failed attempt. Came back here yesterday and found my friend @JadedGray was banned and had a meltdown.

My attempt honestly, was not well planned. I basically overdosed on my psych meds taking:

30 300 mg Wellbutrin
15 2 mg Xanax
30 200 mg Seroquel
15 .5 mg Ativan

The timing wasn't great too. My super found me. He came in to fix my drain which was clogged, called 911 and I was hospitalized.

Why did I choose that second? Anxiety, Stress, loneliness.... choose one. I can't say there was one trigger that set me off.

I am now back from the hospital to my trusty cat Milo (I did miss him.). Let's see how long I stay 'stable' if that is even a word or feeling until I try again. I am a realist. It is just a matter of when. But right now, I want to be with Milo.

 

[painoflife]

Did you get any help in hospital?
I hope you manage to find peace whatever you decide next

 

[Jean4]

Did you get any help in hospital?
I hope you manage to find peace whatever you decide next

Actually, it made things worse. I have Medicare. I wouldn't put my worst enemy in that place. If people thought their future was being hospitalized in a place like that, if you weren't suicidal, the hospital would make you lol.

 

[painoflife]

Actually, it made things worse. I have Medicare. I wouldn't put my worst enemy in that place. If people thought their future was being hospitalized in a place like that, if you weren't suicidal, the hospital would make you lol.

I'm sorry you had such a bad experience, it sounds like you were sent to a really horrible place. It is horrible to be sent somewhere like that when you are already do desperate to find relief.
Maybe take some time and recover from that and then think about what you want.

 

[Lilaea]

I'm sorry that happened to you. I have had several failed attempts and attempts to seek help in hospitals but sadly they only had mad things worst. I am happy you at least are with Milo. I hope all is well. Sorry for my bad English as well.

 

[Jean4]

I'm sorry that happened to you. I have had several failed attempts and attempts to seek help in hospitals but sadly they only had mad things worst. I am happy you at least are with Milo. I hope all is well. Sorry for my bad English as well.

Your English is perfect. Better than many who were born here. Heck. Look at Trump ;)

 

[Sooniwontbehuman]

That's really tough. Those places are the worst, im happy you are out and with milo. I send whatever Love I can to you.

 

[Baskol1]

Your English is perfect. Better than many who were born here. Heck. Look at Trump ;)

You dont like trump i guess?

 

[Jean4]

You dont like trump i guess?

Nope. But I should. I had Obamacare as my insurance and he wants to take it away. They take it away, I can't get my meds. Would make suicide so much easier ;)

 

[Baskol1]

Nope. But I should. I had Obamacare as my insurance and he wants to take it away. They take it away, I can't get my meds. Would make suicide so much easier ;)

Ok what is the reason you dont like trump?

 

[Jean4]

Ok what is the reason you dont like trump?

Too many to mention here, and it isn't a political forum. One of the reasons was he wants to take away my health insurance. If he takes away my health insurance I will die. So in a way, Trump will help me die. Which could be a good thing.

 

[Lilaea]

Your English is perfect. Better than many who were born here. Heck. Look at Trump ;)

Thank you! That very kind of you to say. I know it not much but I'm here if you ever need anything. I don't do much expect sleep and work. Would probably do me nicely to talk to other people. :)