trying ungracefully
Experienced
- Jun 11, 2025
- 217
They don't have the money for the organization anymore so the whole place is being shut down. They will let us know by tomorrow if we can do virtual therapy until June but after that it would be officially ended.
I am so upset, there are not any exposure groups like that that I can go to. They are all IOPs and PHPs and I don't need that level of care, my problem is that I have to take the bus and go outside, I couldn't do that at those programs.
Yesterday I was so anxious and hopeless I just went home and took a PRN and then slept on the couch so I could be near my parent's room, so embarrassing as an adult. I don't feel like I can do this on my own and I don't know what to do because this group was really helpful even though I've been slow with my work. It gave me an opportunity at least to feel hopeful that things will change at least even if I didn't do my exposures by myself.
Now I really have to force myself to learn how to do this on my own and I don't know if I can. I could barely do it with group. I can't use my individual therapy because that is too expensive to take the bus. It is so anxiety provoking because I don't know what is going to happen with me anymore and if I'll backslide even more.
I wish there were more people who cared about exposure response therapy and made groups. I live in a big city with groups all over yet there is none like this one. So many people have things like OCD and agoraphobia and need treatment but they have to pay a shit ton more just to get treatment. Like I can't just spend that much just to go outside it isn't worth the money in my opinion.
The unknown is really scary and needing to push myself even more is anxiety provoking.
I am so upset, there are not any exposure groups like that that I can go to. They are all IOPs and PHPs and I don't need that level of care, my problem is that I have to take the bus and go outside, I couldn't do that at those programs.
Yesterday I was so anxious and hopeless I just went home and took a PRN and then slept on the couch so I could be near my parent's room, so embarrassing as an adult. I don't feel like I can do this on my own and I don't know what to do because this group was really helpful even though I've been slow with my work. It gave me an opportunity at least to feel hopeful that things will change at least even if I didn't do my exposures by myself.
Now I really have to force myself to learn how to do this on my own and I don't know if I can. I could barely do it with group. I can't use my individual therapy because that is too expensive to take the bus. It is so anxiety provoking because I don't know what is going to happen with me anymore and if I'll backslide even more.
I wish there were more people who cared about exposure response therapy and made groups. I live in a big city with groups all over yet there is none like this one. So many people have things like OCD and agoraphobia and need treatment but they have to pay a shit ton more just to get treatment. Like I can't just spend that much just to go outside it isn't worth the money in my opinion.
The unknown is really scary and needing to push myself even more is anxiety provoking.
