scary
find your own way to the Knife
- May 1, 2024
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I was reading another thread and a user told me that describing it this way was a good way to put it thanks Leyna and it really got me thinking about my life and my existence in general (as if I don't already do that)
I've been told by my parents that I was the only child in the family who wasn't planned. Given how I turned out I feel as though I was never meant to exist and that I'm just proving Darwin's theories. I came out mentally and physically unwell, with things that can never truly be cured, and now have no desire to exist. I think the people around me growing up knew that too, that I'm a broken excuse for a human being and that's why I was treated so poorly.
Though its ironic, if someone else were to vent about this and say these things I'd tell them their existence matters, rules for thee not for me I guess.
I've been told by my parents that I was the only child in the family who wasn't planned. Given how I turned out I feel as though I was never meant to exist and that I'm just proving Darwin's theories. I came out mentally and physically unwell, with things that can never truly be cured, and now have no desire to exist. I think the people around me growing up knew that too, that I'm a broken excuse for a human being and that's why I was treated so poorly.
Though its ironic, if someone else were to vent about this and say these things I'd tell them their existence matters, rules for thee not for me I guess.
