AJAX
AJAX
- Apr 3, 2023
- 13
Me and my ex boy friend broke up back in august. This pasts months we had decided to try it again. I agreed cause i loved this guy. We weren't anything, just two ex lovers testing the waters again. Coming the start of this month, he became cold towards me. After two weeks that felt like hell i finally got him to admit his feeling for me changed, he didn't love me anymore. I was devastated, not much because he didn't love me but more for the attachment i had to him and how he treated me. I wish i had never replied to his Instagram message, i wish i had block him. When this happened i started cutting again and got into a awful state.
Now fast-forward today. I was managing, with everything. This was until his best friend called me to tell me he was cutting my ex of his life. I asked hm why? and he said its because he is a easy fuck type of guy, and that he had always been. He told me that even now after just days of finishing it off with my ex, he is already hooking up with people. When he told me this my legs started to shake, i feel awful. Strangely calm but i feel empty. I hate this guy so much. I am being "replaced" with easy sex, meaningless sex. He took my virginity, he took my first everything.
This makes me feel like another number in his list. I want to starve myself of how degusted i am, walk until i cant anymore just so i can feel better. I hate him so much. Call my childish I dont care but i cant with this, i loved him why am i being replaced like that. Not even a mourning for our relationship. Nothing.
Now fast-forward today. I was managing, with everything. This was until his best friend called me to tell me he was cutting my ex of his life. I asked hm why? and he said its because he is a easy fuck type of guy, and that he had always been. He told me that even now after just days of finishing it off with my ex, he is already hooking up with people. When he told me this my legs started to shake, i feel awful. Strangely calm but i feel empty. I hate this guy so much. I am being "replaced" with easy sex, meaningless sex. He took my virginity, he took my first everything.
This makes me feel like another number in his list. I want to starve myself of how degusted i am, walk until i cant anymore just so i can feel better. I hate him so much. Call my childish I dont care but i cant with this, i loved him why am i being replaced like that. Not even a mourning for our relationship. Nothing.
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