https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-euthanesia-process-and-still-want-to-do-it-myself.27396/
Above the first part. So the last part has started.
Today I had my third interview with the euthanasia team. We talked about the coming 2 weeks where i need to talk with a external psychiatrist.
We also talked in general how things have been for me since application and during the process of examining my case.
Also if i am still behind my decision of euthanasia.
At one moment I explained how I felt the last years and how I changed since my second trauma and how that changed me.
And how I came to this point that my resilience is broken including my trust in everything. This is not like normal life anymore so how can you enjoy when i can't feel real joy.
Also talked about the point in August when i attempted to commit suicide with the use of N where i failed. But how calm i felt sitting their on bed with it next to me.
Than the point came she said that they are convinced that she knows i am competent and its from my own will and they can see the pain. She told me to wait and not try it myself anymore. From that point she said lets make some dates for the last part when after you can Die.
She added yes you still have to get approved by the doctor next week, but she will see what we see in your case that consist out of ptsd, chronicle depression and some other things.
After this she walked me through of how it will be. Also asking if i still want to drink it myself their cocktail of N, and added that she will give an extra dose after 30 minutes with an injection They told me that when its all good it will be just a few months to round things up.
So I really have the impression its in the green and it is almost time to die..
I will make a update after the interviews of the next 2 weeks.
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