My environment just adds to my misery

[Lost Magic]

I heard my pathetic neighbours screaming, kicking things and being horribly abusive to each other today in the streets today. To make it worse the Amazon delivery guy had to witness it and I couldn't even get to my door because of it. When the drama died down, I opened my door enough just to grab my parcel and close the door again. The place I live just adds to my problems and makes me feel worse. Does anybody else feel that because of financial reasons they are forced to live some place that they hate. I would also like to point out that lack of money is definitely a big factor and dictates how people are forced to live. It's just a sucky and unfair world overall, and I can't wait to get out of it.

 

[SpaceCadet]

It sucks having loud annoying neighbours, some people seem to be addicted to the drama. I'm definetly not in my dream place too, but atleast people here are respectful for the most part. I wish i made more money aswell, my dream home would be away from the loudness, maybe outside of the big cities in a rural place, or some apartment with a good soundproofing. Money makes our lifes more confortable for sure, you can't deny that.

 

[Lost Magic]

It sucks having loud annoying neighbours, some people seem to be addicted to the drama. I'm definetly not in my dream place too, but atleast people here are respectful for the most part. I wish i made more money aswell, my dream home would be away from the loudness, maybe outside of the big cities in a rural place, or some apartment with a good soundproofing. Money makes our lifes more confortable for sure, you can't deny that.

Yes, a rural place with a quiet small town nearby would be great. Anyway, I'll be going for a break soon, so that will be a relief. Then when the time comes I will drink this N (I saved up enough) and never wake up again. That will be an even bigger relief. God, I am so fucking tired of this shit.

 

[justtiredofit]

I'm in the same boat paulstrong. I'm actually taking risks now and going out in the area at night, hoping I'll be shot.

 

[Red Scare]

Does anybody else feel that because of financial reasons they are forced to live some place that they hate.

Yes. I had to move back to my rural home town after my husband died and I could no longer afford our home on just my income. So I had to move back here, after 15 years. I did everything I could to escape my childhood home. Break the cycle of abuse and generational poverty, only to end up back here... I have no friends left here because they've all moved on, I don't know anybody here anymore.

I had no choice, it was either this or homelessness. I absolutely hate this. I was happy, I was already doing what I wanted with my life. If I wanted to be single and stuck here struggling to get by paycheck to paycheck, I would have not got married and moved away from this place. Moving back here was the last thing I wanted, and now having to struggle to get by paycheck to paycheck I will never be able to save enough money to move away again. It feels like I have no choice either, and that is the most frustrating. It's like I'm being forced now to live an entire life I hate. Desire to ctb has never been stronger.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yes. I had to move back to my rural home town after my husband died and I could no longer afford our home on just my income. So I had to move back here, after 15 years. I did everything I could to escape my childhood home. Break the cycle of abuse and generational poverty, only to end up back here... I have no friends left here because they've all moved on, I don't know anybody here anymore.

I had no choice, it was either this or homelessness. I absolutely hate this. I was happy, I was already doing what I wanted with my life. If I wanted to be single and stuck here struggling to get by paycheck to paycheck, I would have not got married and moved away from this place. Moving back here was the last thing I wanted, and now having to struggle to get by paycheck to paycheck I will never be able to save enough money to move away again. It feels like I have no choice either, and that is the most frustrating. It's like I'm being forced now to live an entire life I hate. Desire to ctb has never been stronger.

I'm so sorry of your loss and being forced to retreat back to a place that makes you unhappy. I feel the same here. I have no energy or desire to try to get out of this situation and it probably would be a futile attempt anyway. I am getting older and it is too difficult to rebuild anything from this rubble. CTB is the only way out.

 

[Red Scare]

I am getting older and it is too difficult to rebuild anything from this rubble.

This is exactly the place I find myself in. It's all just so pointless.