Story My elder cousin called me

[Blue Rose]

She called me in her drunken state. Her voice was friendly and very sweet.
I was listening to her greetings. Then she told me that she had missed me so much.

She had loved me so much when I had been very young.
She had came to my hospital, when I had attempted to do CTB in 2017.

I was listening to her warm words, I wanted to cry right now.
She told me that she appreciated me for my patience to my harsh life.
She said... Thanks for growing until now well.

I almost cried. But I pretended to be fine. I managed to suppress my tears and tearful voice.

It is Hurt for me to leave her behind someday!
It is Hurt for me to confirm my control and right Totally with thinking about my death and CTB only!

It is too late!

 

[Oozzy]

You are lucky for having someone who cares about you. Even my family doesnt care about me.

 

[WornOutLife]

I almost cried. But I pretended to be fine.

I can absolutely relate!
Pretending with those who we love is extremely hard and leaven them behind is even harder.

Of course it hurts but unfortunately there are only two options: deal with life or get out from life!
I'm really trying to cope with the first but damn, seems impossible.