Method My draft plan so far.

[TheLostCause]

So ive started making a draft plan for how i will CTB and what i will need. I want to include alcohol as i have terrible anxiety, even just being outside set it off, alcohol should help reduce that and make me feel calmer but i will only drink enough to reduce it so i will still be 100% with it and aware of what i am doing, i dont drink often so 50cl should be enough but i will get 100cl which is 2 bottles just incase. I also want to overdose aswell as jump, it just gives me that sense of comfort as overrdose has always been my go to method, im aware of the low success rate of overdosing but since my main part of the method is to jump that wont matter. Ive yet to find a place to jump from, i would personally prefer a bridge to a car park but i dont want to put any drivers at risk, my other idea is to jump over the central reservation or onto the service lane. Im a bit picky about a bridge as it needs to not have a road over it as i can imagine someone seeing and stopping to try stop me.

Things needed:-	Amount:-	Status:-
Alcohol (Sidekick)	100cl	NOT Obtained
Paractamol x4 boxes	(64 tablets = 32,000mg)	Obtained
Quetiapine	Atleast 17 x 300mg = 5100mg	NOT Obtained (Working on skipping one and storing)
Venlafaxine	UNDECIDED	NOT Obtained
Lorazapam	UNDECIDED	NOT Obtained
Notes	4	NOT yet written
Location:-	Actions:-
Home (Unless i have to travel for the bridge/building)	Drink and consume medications
Bridge/Building (UNDECIDED)	To jump from	Undecided (Still looking)
Date: Not Set
Time: Overall an evening time when partner is at work
Timeline:-	Action:-
5pm:-	Start Drinking.
6pm:-	Start consuiming the Paracetamol (Take 5 every half hour and 6 for the last 4 doses).
7pm:-	Continue to drink and consume paracetamol
8pm:-	Wake partner for work (Take care to hide everything)
9pm:-	Hide things while partner gets read for work. Once he has left leave out the suicide notes i have yet to write. Make sure the one for my mum is in a letter and ready to post with stamp and a note for partner to post in the morning. Post friends on my way out or leave with a note for my partner to post if im worried she maybe awake and alert someone.
9:30pm:-	Take the rest of the alcohol and what tablets i have left and leave to the chosen bridge.
10pm:-	Take the Venlafaxine and Lorazapam as many as i can stomach.
11pm:-	Take the rest of what tablets i have left including the Quetiapine but minus the paracetamol (Continue to take paracetamol every half hour)
12pm:-	Finish off the paracetamol and what drink is left if i can stomach it.
12:15pm:-	Get in position on the chosen bridge/building and jump when ready to do so.

 

[depressedsally]

Why are you taking all that medication just go and jump sorry it's lost me

 

[virginiawoolf86]

The paracetamol might not be a good idea. As someone who tried to overdose on them, the pain is agonizing, incessant vomiting of bile. Not a good time.

As far as the rest of your plan, I don't want to encourage anything. But I just wanted to let you know that at least.

My best to you. I hope you find your peace.

 

[TheLostCause]

Why are you taking all that medication just go and jump sorry it's lost me

Because as i said it gives me a sense of comfort as it has always been my go to method which ofc doesnt have a high success rate. Also if for whatever reason i did survive the jump i have the comfort in knowing the meds would finish whats left of me. I plan to find somewhere high enough that, that isnt a possibility but still its what i want to do.

 

[depressedsally]

Because as i said it gives me a sense of comfort as it has always been my go to method which ofc doesnt have a high success rate. Also if for whatever reason i did survive the jump i have the comfort in knowing the meds would finish whats left of me. I plan to find somewhere high enough that, that isnt a possibility but still its what i want to do.

Sorry to hear life has brought you to this

 

[TheLostCause]

The paracetamol might not be a good idea. As someone who tried to overdose on them, the pain is agonizing, incessant vomiting of bile. Not a good time.

As far as the rest of your plan, I don't want to encourage anything. But I just wanted to let you know that at least.

My best to you. I hope you find your peace.

Yea ive overdosed several times on them so i know what to expect. But i will have jumped long before the effects of the paracetamol kicks in but thankyou.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Sounds an interesting plan, jumping was my best friends way an he did it on Saturday. If you are in UK PM me and I can give some places you might not have thought of.

 

[darksideofthebright]

I am so sorry life has driven you to this point. Regardless, I genuinely hope for you a smooth travel and hope you can finally have the peace you deserve.