Kadaver
let death be kinder than man
- Aug 11, 2023
- 130
On Sunday my cat had a medical emergency and needed to be taken to the vet. He was in pain and I was so worried that I woke my dad up take us to the nearest emergency vet (a little over an hour away) at 4 am. I had originally planned to wait until Monday when our primary vet opened but my cats discomfort escalated pretty drastically
My dad took his time getting ready and acted like I was waking him up just to wake him up and was a complete asshole throughout the entire ordeal; never asking me how I was doing or showing any empathy. I asked my sibling if they could cover the vet bills for now with the plan of paying them back because I didnt have the money on my own. If they had said no my cat would be dead and he would have died painfully. My cat needed a minor operation and had to be held by the vet for 3 days
My dad was "disappointed" in my sibling for paying for the vet bill, claiming he wanted me to "learn." I truly don't know what the fuck I was supposed to learn from watching the thing I love most in this world die a painful death. Now I feel even more shitty as not only could my cat have died but my own father, who claims to care about me, WANTED him to die. I cannot get over this and I think about it constantly—My dad wanted me to lose the thing I love most forever. He wanted me to go through the agony of grief on top of my already shit mental health
I haven't spoken to him about this but I plan to because its just such a cruel thing to want, and especially for his own child. I just want to die.
My dad took his time getting ready and acted like I was waking him up just to wake him up and was a complete asshole throughout the entire ordeal; never asking me how I was doing or showing any empathy. I asked my sibling if they could cover the vet bills for now with the plan of paying them back because I didnt have the money on my own. If they had said no my cat would be dead and he would have died painfully. My cat needed a minor operation and had to be held by the vet for 3 days
My dad was "disappointed" in my sibling for paying for the vet bill, claiming he wanted me to "learn." I truly don't know what the fuck I was supposed to learn from watching the thing I love most in this world die a painful death. Now I feel even more shitty as not only could my cat have died but my own father, who claims to care about me, WANTED him to die. I cannot get over this and I think about it constantly—My dad wanted me to lose the thing I love most forever. He wanted me to go through the agony of grief on top of my already shit mental health
I haven't spoken to him about this but I plan to because its just such a cruel thing to want, and especially for his own child. I just want to die.
