slitwristsbleedcold
blissful overdose - 13,8 bmi
- Oct 15, 2024
- 104
i can just tell, he hates me, he's dissapointed of what I became, totally understandable, I understand.
today I've seen him after a while, we haven't spoken properly in long, but those eyes, full of love and affection, protection, are now gone, filled with resentment and hate, worse, shame.
he said i am a depressed junkie, that I'm just being a victim, I don't want to be helped, and just want the temporary affection from attentions.
and ultimately, i can't prove him wrong.
he's right, but those attentions, that's not what I want.
his words aren't with compassion, but venom, a hatred that build up over the years.
i wish i could apologize to him, for being this way, i truly do, but i can't bring myself to look at him in the eyes, i just cant, not anymore.
today I've seen him after a while, we haven't spoken properly in long, but those eyes, full of love and affection, protection, are now gone, filled with resentment and hate, worse, shame.
he said i am a depressed junkie, that I'm just being a victim, I don't want to be helped, and just want the temporary affection from attentions.
and ultimately, i can't prove him wrong.
he's right, but those attentions, that's not what I want.
his words aren't with compassion, but venom, a hatred that build up over the years.
i wish i could apologize to him, for being this way, i truly do, but i can't bring myself to look at him in the eyes, i just cant, not anymore.
