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Cynacs
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- Aug 21, 2023
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I've done it, put in an order for SN. I bought it on amazon (which hopefully I did correct). I may get a PO box and deliver it there or have UPS hold it, which I would do to try to hide it better.
I plan on taking the SN w/ water at night, then going to sleep asap. I can't get my hands on anti-emetics and this is my first thought of what to do. Also, doing it at night would give it plenty of time, but if I throw up I would likely be found. Maybe I do this outside where no one will hear? Maybe I lie and say I am spending a night with a friend (hard to pull off, I have no friends)?
On the other hand I've also contacted my therapist, just incase I don't end up going through with this plan.
Living how I am currently living is not an option, I've done a lot of things wrong. Either I get better, or I end it. Those are the options I am giving myself. I feel like this is a good way of dealing with these types of situations. Giving yourself an ultimatum, none of them being how you're currently living.
Any suggestions are welcomed!
I plan on taking the SN w/ water at night, then going to sleep asap. I can't get my hands on anti-emetics and this is my first thought of what to do. Also, doing it at night would give it plenty of time, but if I throw up I would likely be found. Maybe I do this outside where no one will hear? Maybe I lie and say I am spending a night with a friend (hard to pull off, I have no friends)?
On the other hand I've also contacted my therapist, just incase I don't end up going through with this plan.
Living how I am currently living is not an option, I've done a lot of things wrong. Either I get better, or I end it. Those are the options I am giving myself. I feel like this is a good way of dealing with these types of situations. Giving yourself an ultimatum, none of them being how you're currently living.
Any suggestions are welcomed!