NSFW My Constant PMO Has Given Me A Condition That I'm Not Sure Can Be Undone

[The Call of The Void]

This has been on my mind for a long time. This is going into real NSFW territory, so it's OK if you want to turn back. I hope I can still post it since I did mark it NSFW. Well, here goes...

It all started at night. I was riding my bike towards home, and something felt odd. I felt like my penis wasn't there. It turns out it was buried. I've had this happen before, normally due to wearing tight shorts or pants, so I only panicked a little. I went home and got it unburied. It was weird, but since it rarely happened, I didn't think much of it. Until the next day, when it happened again. This is where I became scared. Scared of leaving my house, being outside, and scared of losing my manhood.

I think I got this by using to much PMO. I was overdoing it. I've tried using porn blockers, but there's always loopholes. I"ve tried researching my condition, it could be buried penis, which can be caused by weight gain, but I'm not sure. A doctor looked at it and even he wasn't sure. I'm trying to get my testosterone checked, I heard that could help, but at this point, I just don't know.

It's so uncomfortable to even walk. It's like it's not even there. If the potential weight loss surgery I'm trying to get done and the testosterone doesn't work, I'm done. I refuse to live the rest of my life like there's nothing between my legs. This condition has made my mental health even worse. I can barely tell anyone because most people don't understand. In the end, it's my fault. I should've quit a long time ago. I take full responsibility. Remember when I said earlier that I was afraid of losing my manhood? I may have been wrong this whole time. Because how could I lose my manhood when I was barely a man at all?

 

[autumnal]

This has been on my mind for a long time. This is going into real NSFW territory, so it's OK if you want to turn back. I hope I can still post it since I did mark it NSFW. Well, here goes...

It all started at night. I was riding my bike towards home, and something felt odd. I felt like my penis wasn't there. It turns out it was buried. I've had this happen before, normally due to wearing tight shorts or pants, so I only panicked a little. I went home and got it unburied. It was weird, but since it rarely happened, I didn't think much of it. Until the next day, when it happened again. This is where I became scared. Scared of leaving my house, being outside, and scared of losing my manhood.

I think I got this by using to much PMO. I was overdoing it. I've tried using porn blockers, but there's always loopholes. I"ve tried researching my condition, it could be buried penis, which can be caused by weight gain, but I'm not sure. A doctor looked at it and even he wasn't sure. I'm trying to get my testosterone checked, I heard that could help, but at this point, I just don't know.

It's so uncomfortable to even walk. It's like it's not even there. If the potential weight loss surgery I'm trying to get done and the testosterone doesn't work, I'm done. I refuse to live the rest of my life like there's nothing between my legs. This condition has made my mental health even worse. I can barely tell anyone because most people don't understand. In the end, it's my fault. I should've quit a long time ago. I take full responsibility. Remember when I said earlier that I was afraid of losing my manhood? I may have been wrong this whole time. Because how could I lose my manhood when I was barely a man at all?

First of all, what does 'PMO' stand for? It always helps to define terms when mentioning them for the first time. One result I found was 'Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm', so for now I'm going to assume you are referring to masturbation using porn.

There are two distinctly separate issues at play here. The first is the physical. I'm not a doctor, but as a male I can say it's probably not unusual for the flacid penis to be less prominent at some times than others. Temperature, posture, flacid size and individual differences can make some less visible than others. But it is also possible if you have gained weight that the penis can be buried beneath surrounding fat. Hopefully a referral to a specialist, as well as the testosterone level checks, will give some answers on this. Either way, it doesn't sound like you have anything physically concerning to worry about. Either you are just noticing normal variations of the penis, or weight gain has buried it and will hopefully be remedied by weight-loss surgery.

What comes across far more dramatically in your post is the psychological aspects. If for example your finger stopped working normally, you would be concerned and puzzled, but you wouldn't have any reason to feel guilt or self-loathing. But in the case of your penis, you have noticed a physical occurrence and immediately tied this in with a massive guilt trip on yourself for masturbating too much over porn. You have also immediately begun self-hating and describing yourself as less of a man., as well as being scared to leave the house.

The first thing you need to realise is that there is likely no connection between the physical situation you are experiencing, and the psychological aspects you link it to. No amount of masturbation affects the penis in the way you describe. Nothing you have done has caused this, and there is no blame to be placed upon you. I understand that some people do have hangups and guilt around porn use (or about the specific types or legality of porn used) and may wish to reduce this behaviour in and of itself. If that is something which concerns you separately from this penis condition, then that is your choice. But it is certainly not the reason for these recent physical changes.

The second thing to realise is that nobody else can see what state your penis may be in during normal everyday life. Nobody else has any idea what you may be experiencing, and nobody else is going to be thinking of you any differently from usual. So there is no reason why you need to change being around people or going outside to live your life as normal. Isolating yourself or stopping regular behaviours is just going to make you feel worse overall while waiting for some medical explanations of your situation.

I hope this is useful, and please keep us all appraised of any future developments in identifying the cause of this situation.

 

[The Call of The Void]

First of all, what does 'PMO' stand for? It always helps to define terms when mentioning them for the first time. One result I found was 'Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm', so for now I'm going to assume you are referring to masturbation using porn.

There are two distinctly separate issues at play here. The first is the physical. I'm not a doctor, but as a male I can say it's probably not unusual for the flacid penis to be less prominent at some times than others. Temperature, posture, flacid size and individual differences can make some less visible than others. But it is also possible if you have gained weight that the penis can be buried beneath surrounding fat. Hopefully a referral to a specialist, as well as the testosterone level checks, will give some answers on this. Either way, it doesn't sound like you have anything physically concerning to worry about. Either you are just noticing normal variations of the penis, or weight gain has buried it and will hopefully be remedied by weight-loss surgery.

What comes across far more dramatically in your post is the psychological aspects. If for example your finger stopped working normally, you would be concerned and puzzled, but you wouldn't have any reason to feel guilt or self-loathing. But in the case of your penis, you have noticed a physical occurrence and immediately tied this in with a massive guilt trip on yourself for masturbating too much over porn. You have also immediately begun self-hating and describing yourself as less of a man., as well as being scared to leave the house.

The first thing you need to realise is that there is likely no connection between the physical situation you are experiencing, and the psychological aspects you link it to. No amount of masturbation affects the penis in the way you describe. Nothing you have done has caused this, and there is no blame to be placed upon you. I understand that some people do have hangups and guilt around porn use (or about the specific types or legality of porn used) and may wish to reduce this behaviour in and of itself. If that is something which concerns you separately from this penis condition, then that is your choice. But it is certainly not the reason for these recent physical changes.

The second thing to realise is that nobody else can see what state your penis may be in during normal everyday life. Nobody else has any idea what you may be experiencing, and nobody else is going to be thinking of you any differently from usual. So there is no reason why you need to change being around people or going outside to live your life as normal. Isolating yourself or stopping regular behaviours is just going to make you feel worse overall while waiting for some medical explanations of your situation.

I hope this is useful, and please keep us all appraised of any future developments in identifying the cause of this situation.

Thanks for this. Yeah, PMO does mean porn. Hearing these words kind of helped me today. Perhaps I need to keep trying.