My bus gets here tomorrow

[BigNarkoleptic]

So I'm writing my letter, leaving everything the way it is, having one last meal tonight, and in the morning probably gonna CTB after I take my painkillers and antacids and rouse up some SN in a few cups

Hoping the stuff is pure enough, hoping it's going to be a quick and painless and peaceful method

I've purged a few things over a word document the last few days before writing my final letter to feel a bit more clear headed

Just need to remember to leave the door ajar that morning and not to eat too much this afternoon

The site has been really helpful, for so many reasons, I've only been here a few weeks, but it's brought some relief, amongst other feelings

 

[iwanttodie000]

Wishing you the best of luck and a peaceful journey friend.

 

[lofticries]

May you have a quiet and peaceful trip.

 

[FreeAngel]

I hope you feel better on the other side

 

[aminend]

Hope u completely peaceful transition. Keep us updated as much as possible.

 

[Trisolaris]

I hope you find peace.

 

[jusbug]

peace

 

[MAA Ke pass]

I hope you found peace

 

[AntiCycleAN]

I hope that you find peace, and an escape from life's pain.

 

[BigNarkoleptic]

Thank you for all the kind messages
I'm getting tired of hanging around
I have recently thought of making up my tent and using my CO method as well to double up to be sure
Possibly tonight

If I do I will pop up the progress
I'm debating just trying the CO method and if it fail I will take my SN in the morning but the bus is coming

 

[WornOutLife]

Wish you the best and lots of love and peace.

 

[aminend]

Thank you for all the kind messages
I'm getting tired of hanging around
I have recently thought of making up my tent and using my CO method as well to double up to be sure
Possibly tonight

If I do I will pop up the progress
I'm debating just trying the CO method and if it fail I will take my SN in the morning but the bus is coming

SN and CO have almost same death process. SN is the oral version of CO

 

[ClairyFairy]

Nice one

Okay guys, thank you again for all your great messages.

But I've had a moment.

I've decided to buy a bicycle and cycle instead, and accept a job I've been offered.

I'm not going to catch the bus yet.

--
I was literally moments away this morning, a little drunk, and decided to step back.
And just look at all the things that are keeping me pinned into this.
All my past, some of it mine, some of it not mine, affecting my mindset all the time.
Things when I look outside are the same, I just realise its down to how I'm feeling inside.
Its a merry go round, but its life.
So I'm going to write my notice to leave to catch the bus and leave it behind for now.
I hope some people on here can also try to make peace, and walk the path that ultimately is harder to walk sometimes.
Because it is, for us all.
I'm seeing this as a victory, to enjoy things, while I can. Before I let the world try to damage me anymore.
I'm putting up a riot shield.
I'm going to try and enjoy life as much as possible, and try to smile, and laugh, and be silly, and be a kid sometimes, and find love.

Peace to you all.

Sorry I'm messing up the quote I didn't realise i posted. Good luck to you x