Ilpiccoloskywalker
Free hugs
- Jan 8, 2020
- 22
Without my computers, movies, games, books i would be extremely desperate.
At this point i only go out to go to work that's it.
And even at work, while i do my coding i fantasize and dream, and i google about trips i will never do.
I often fantasize that my life will be somewhat meaningfull for myself and for other people.
I started ignoring reality completely.
I spend 95% of my waking time on a computer screen, alone, no one talks to me, luckily i can still do that, but if i were to loose that i would cry out of pain.
Whenever i spend some time out with people i get reminded how boring, stupid, coward.
People deal with me either like i'm a looser or like i'm a child-minded person and they have to try and help me(e.g. my parents but thats' normal isn't it)
So i prefer to ignore every fucking one.
I only feel human watching anime and shit.
No wonder one thinks about ctbing every day.
And it's not even worth expressing this pain to people, they don't listen to me, like i'm kind of a mad problematic person.
At this point i only go out to go to work that's it.
And even at work, while i do my coding i fantasize and dream, and i google about trips i will never do.
I often fantasize that my life will be somewhat meaningfull for myself and for other people.
I started ignoring reality completely.
I spend 95% of my waking time on a computer screen, alone, no one talks to me, luckily i can still do that, but if i were to loose that i would cry out of pain.
Whenever i spend some time out with people i get reminded how boring, stupid, coward.
People deal with me either like i'm a looser or like i'm a child-minded person and they have to try and help me(e.g. my parents but thats' normal isn't it)
So i prefer to ignore every fucking one.
I only feel human watching anime and shit.
No wonder one thinks about ctbing every day.
And it's not even worth expressing this pain to people, they don't listen to me, like i'm kind of a mad problematic person.
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