My body and personality aren't grounded in reality.

[Lou_Charthethird]

I feel like i could lie about anything because what even is the truth anymore? I cant differentiate what is a real thought and what is fake, and more importantly, i cant see why it matters. Like there is nothing stopping me from changing my whole personality to whatever is the most attractive thing to everyone else. Because nothing will ever change how i feel internally- nothing. My body feels so pliable, i feel like i can make it do anything to make it seem like im a human, but im not. Im nothing. Im a fucking liar and i cant stop myself from it. I dont exist. I really dont. I didnt even explain this well but who gives a shit? I mean none of this will matter when im dead. I just wish that day would come soon. I want this limbo im in to be over already. Its exhausting and painfully boring.

 

[idksympxthy]

And even then changing it to fit to the social norm gets so boring after while. Everyone is so full of shit and trying to put on their best face cus they think it cures that emptiness within them. And when they realize it doesnt, their true colours show. Admitting you're a liar makes you more human than you think. I know it doesnt do anything to help the emptiness but if you're gonna continue living, at least live the way you want to for YOURSELF and no one else. Even the smallest of efforts will give results sooner or later. As we wander this earth aimlessly, treat yourself with kindness because its not your fault.

(very off topic but i like your pfp. chiaki goated)

 

[welcome]

All the previous internet 'friends' who would talk to me every once in a blue moon (most often because I would reach out) each used to have a group of people they interacted with and liked. These people in my opinion were completely worthless overcompensators with virtually nothing to their personalities. But for some reason they all were happy and got attention and never felt alone pretty much ever. I think it's for that same reason: they just follow the newest thing that everyone else has deemed as socially acceptable and get rewarded by other shallow people for it with social acceptance and attention. As long as you are your own person you'll essentially never be happy in the presence of most people.

 

[TransientEternal]

And even then changing it to fit to the social norm gets so boring after while. Everyone is so full of shit and trying to put on their best face cus they think it cures that emptiness within them. And when they realize it doesnt, their true colours show. Admitting you're a liar makes you more human than you think. I know it doesnt do anything to help the emptiness but if you're gonna continue living, at least live the way you want to for YOURSELF and no one else. Even the smallest of efforts will give results sooner or later. As we wander this earth aimlessly, treat yourself with kindness because its not your fault.

(very off topic but i like your pfp. chiaki goated)

Part of the reason why I don't care about being selfish. People don't like their ignorance being challenged.

 

[idksympxthy]

Part of the reason why I don't care about being selfish. People don't like their ignorance being challenged.

And the moment you do challenge it, suddenly you're the badguy for disrupting their social 'peace'. ignorance is truly bliss but why must I sit here hating myself for not wanting to follow along with their superficial way of living? not like reality is THAT scary

 

[Lou_Charthethird]

And even then changing it to fit to the social norm gets so boring after while. Everyone is so full of shit and trying to put on their best face cus they think it cures that emptiness within them. And when they realize it doesnt, their true colours show. Admitting you're a liar makes you more human than you think. I know it doesnt do anything to help the emptiness but if you're gonna continue living, at least live the way you want to for YOURSELF and no one else. Even the smallest of efforts will give results sooner or later. As we wander this earth aimlessly, treat yourself with kindness because its not your fault.

(very off topic but i like your pfp. chiaki goated)

Honestly i wouldnt be dependent on this fake personality if i truly werent so empty inside.its not intentional, its like my mind automatically defers to acting this way as a way to distance myself from serving myself. Im so unbelievably dissociated from my true self. I know everyone else on this thread is talking more about how people chase social norms and how its unforgiving for free thinkers, but my problem is something else entirely and kinda something wrong with me but im still glad for people to relate to what i said in whatever way they seek .Also Aww thanks i love danganronpa

 

[idksympxthy]

Honestly i wouldnt be dependent on this fake personality if i truly werent so empty inside.its not intentional, its like my mind automatically defers to acting this way as a way to distance myself from serving myself. Im so unbelievably dissociated from my true self. Also Aww thanks i love danganronpa

Its a journey to find oneself again, but something that may be worth it in the end. like how you love danganronpa, there must be other things you like or care about deeply like maybe a certain topic, a game genre, a hobby, something lost to time that you forgot about. start small, and work your way there. Until we're in the ground, our journey continues. You are deserving of the warmth you feel like you're missing and you deserve to be able to give yourself that warmth too<3