I am a person that got destroyed due to multiple accidents.
After all of those I ve been left with permanent damage, extreme physical pain and some disabilities.
The pain I feel in my body is immense. Words aren't enough to describe what i am going through every second of my existence for the last 4 years.
However Im so introverted since born that I never complain, I'm just screaming and crying inside me never showing anything to anyone.
I just wish i could put my family and friends in my body just for 2 seconds. They'd immediately scream to get them out of it.
And that is my biggest sorrow. That I cannot put others in it to see the intensity of suffering...
sorry just venting...
I'm not saying that I want you to die by suicide but do you have a method available if the pain you are enduring becomes too much to bear?
I understand the feeling of not wanting to hurt family or those closest to you by dying by suicide but you're right. They may be more accepting of your wish to end your life if they had to live with the chronic pain that you have to live with.
I'm so sorry for your suffering. I truly am sorry.
The decision to end your life and your suffering is ultimately your decision to make.
It can get to the point where it is not your problem if those who don't understand the pain behind your suicidal feelings do not take the time to at least try and empathize with you.
It is your right to make decisions regarding your quality of life. And it is your right to decide whether or not you wish to continue to struggle through the life you've described or not.
I'm so sorry for your suffering and that your pain has brought you to the point of wanting to end your life.
Personally, I respect whatever decision you make and if you decide that ending your life is the best solution then I wish you a peaceful journey.
Sending good wishes and prayers that you receive loving guidance in whichever decision you come to.
I so feel for you as I also have chronic 24/7 pain and it seems that nobody understands or cares, those in my community, NOT the folks os SS, as they are all so darn nice!
When I go to my pain doctor and I am waiting in the lobby of the hospital, others who are there for other reasons than chronic pain, have in the past said things like: " you look ok, do you crave drugs?" to "are you a drug addict?" and the list goes on.
I am 100% the same as you @deathblade98 , as I wish others who say and/or think things of this nature would have to be in my body for 1 day. I always have wondered if they would be so quick to critique me.
Easy to judge, hard to understand!
Sending you lots of hugs, love and a week filled with sunny skies and soft breezes.
Walter
Walter, for what it's worth, you can read my reply to deathblade98. I'm sending the same sentiments to you as well my friend. I'm so sorry for what you have to endure.
