Lunaloveflood
Member
- Dec 27, 2019
- 56
Maybe it's a good thing and he'll give me the last push i need to finally find the strenght to kill my self. But it's so hard and he makes me feel so worthless.
I'm trying to make him realise that he is hurting me, but by doing that i'm just realising how much he doesn't give a shit about me
I have never felt this lonely before and i spend most of my time alone But this is different i just feel completly misunderstood and guilty of not feeling good and "having fun" with him.
It's my first relashionship and i regret not staying celibate I have almost no energy to use and i'm using it to please him but he doesn't do the same for me. I don't know how to leave him i feel so bad leaving him and he doesn't take it seriously when i try anyway
I'm trying to make him realise that he is hurting me, but by doing that i'm just realising how much he doesn't give a shit about me
I have never felt this lonely before and i spend most of my time alone But this is different i just feel completly misunderstood and guilty of not feeling good and "having fun" with him.
It's my first relashionship and i regret not staying celibate I have almost no energy to use and i'm using it to please him but he doesn't do the same for me. I don't know how to leave him i feel so bad leaving him and he doesn't take it seriously when i try anyway