I got dumped too….only I can't harass the guy because he blocked me and walked right by me like I don't exist. It's been almost 2mths and hurts like it happened yesterday.
Huh crazy, it's been 2 months for me too. love of my life, invited her into every sphere of my existence and there is no where left untouched by her memories. I have a loving family and good friends and on paper it shouldn't seem like I am lonely but without her I can't help but feel so. No one stimulates me like she did, and even less so now she left.
My mates got me to go out and flirt with girls at clubs but that just made me feel empty.
I thought maybe I just need to be more cold hearted and shag around so downloaded Tinder and spent a fuck ton of money. I have about 4 or 5 potential hookups and have cancelled rebound sex at the last minute once already as the thought of going through with it just makes me so upset I end up crying.
Basically nothing will work to get over her.
She too has blocked me on everything except WhatsApp which she has muted but occasionally reads. Why? I don't know. Perhaps she still wants to know that I want her. Which IK people would then tell me to not give her what she wants - and i'll try to not contact her for a bit - but my dumb brain can never resist for too long. Or maybe it's because - as she is aware i've already tried to ctb once - she knows like me that cutting the final line of contact will be the death of me and she's keeping that line open to keep me alive.
I'm an English Literature student and she has always loved my words of affirmation. I've wrote 5 sides of A4 and sent it as a letter talking about our past and my love for her. I spent £300 on gifts and sent presents to her on what was my birthday last month. I've proclaimed my love to her friends. And I know all of these behaviours are just further sabotaging but I can't help it. It's the only thing that I have the motivation to do.
And I want to CTB before I end up in prison for breaking an eventual restraining order that is bound to come my way at the rate I am going. Or worse yet I end up assaulting and hurting her.