Discussion My anxiety is killing me. I feel like I can’t carry on

[Hangm4n]

I have major anxiety, im constantly overthinking and worrying about stuff. I've been abused verbally and emotionally in past relationships and criticised for mistakes I've made, and I get it everyone makes mistakes but I can never feel like I learn from them when I get pounded verbally.

I feel like my wife is a narcissistic person. If she has a go at me about something that isn't really necessary and I snap back she always says "why are you being horrible to me? You're so horrible to me" when In fact I'm just frustrated at being moaned at, and being treated like a piece of shit. It's made me so anxious that I feel like I've got to tread on eggshells to keep people happy and I can't express myself to some people. I just feel like if I do I'll be blasted for it and that's not fair. It's making my life miserable, and I feel like if I'm gone it helps people out because I'm no longer there to be moaned at and criticised I can just drift off into nothingness and it'll all be gone. I just need to be gone I feel but doing it is so difficult

 

[LonelyLight]

Everything you've just said pretty much describes me, my anxieties and my own relationship. If you'd like to PM me you can, if your looking for someone to chat to.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I have major anxiety, im constantly overthinking and worrying about stuff. I've been abused verbally and emotionally in past relationships and criticised for mistakes I've made, and I get it everyone makes mistakes but I can never feel like I learn from them when I get pounded verbally.

I feel like my wife is a narcissistic person. If she has a go at me about something that isn't really necessary and I snap back she always says "why are you being horrible to me? You're so horrible to me" when In fact I'm just frustrated at being moaned at, and being treated like a piece of shit. It's made me so anxious that I feel like I've got to tread on eggshells to keep people happy and I can't express myself to some people. I just feel like if I do I'll be blasted for it and that's not fair. It's making my life miserable, and I feel like if I'm gone it helps people out because I'm no longer there to be moaned at and criticised I can just drift off into nothingness and it'll all be gone. I just need to be gone I feel but doing it is so difficult

omg I completly relate to that, as well for anxiety and narcissistic bullying wife.

 

[Hangm4n]

omg I completly relate to that, as well for anxiety and narcissistic bullying wife.

The narcissism I can't stand. Makes me want to run away and never ever come back. Can't stand it, I just want to be treated like a normal person. Worse thing is she is a teacher so she speaks to me like I'm a child I hate it.

 

[JimFord99]

I have major anxiety, im constantly overthinking and worrying about stuff. I've been abused verbally and emotionally in past relationships and criticised for mistakes I've made, and I get it everyone makes mistakes but I can never feel like I learn from them when I get pounded verbally.

I feel like my wife is a narcissistic person. If she has a go at me about something that isn't really necessary and I snap back she always says "why are you being horrible to me? You're so horrible to me" when In fact I'm just frustrated at being moaned at, and being treated like a piece of shit. It's made me so anxious that I feel like I've got to tread on eggshells to keep people happy and I can't express myself to some people. I just feel like if I do I'll be blasted for it and that's not fair. It's making my life miserable, and I feel like if I'm gone it helps people out because I'm no longer there to be moaned at and criticised I can just drift off into nothingness and it'll all be gone. I just need to be gone I feel but doing it is so difficult

Blissed of being married, being under the thumb is not easy by all means. Just another ad on to end it all. I understand. It is all too much.