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they/them
- Jul 13, 2021
- 76
I'm going to do my best to give context.
My mom is abusive, emotionally and mentally. She's been gaslighting me for many years and hasn't cared about my mental or physical well-being. I'm disabled so I often need help she isn't willing to give. It's led me to not get enough food each day because she'll go out to eat with her friends, leaving me home without buying groceries. If we have groceries I'm often bedridden and can't stand up to make food. I honestly can't remember the last time I had more than two meals in a day.
She knows this, and has made fun of me for "rationing food to myself" to her friends like it was a joke - right in front of me. She gets mad at me for eating things in the fridge because she "was going to cook that" when she never told me that beforehand and it was sitting in the fridge long enough to start going bad soon.
She's very back-and-forth as well - the other day she offered to buy me food, and after paying for it she got very serious and said "you just cost me 18 dollars." like she was angry at me. At no point prior to paying did she say the food was too expensive and ask me to get something cheaper - and I would have accommodated if she did. Not even 30 minutes after, she offered to take me out to the mall and buy me new clothes. It's really classic gaslighting and love-bombing, and it happens so rapidly I often get dizzy interacting with her.
That's not the entire story, because I'd be typing my entire life story if I tried to say everything she does, but TL;DR - my mom does not treat me well and doesn't care about my mental/physical health. I'm saying all of this to try and fully demonstrate how much she truly doesn't care about my wellbeing. With that in mind...
I was told by my brother earlier that my mom wouldn't be home for a while, because my mother "saved a man from jumping off the bridge." and I was honestly stunned. She's never cared about helping me, and yet she'll help a random stranger? Are you fucking serious? The same woman who yells at me because I can't walk or stand long enough to clean for very long? That bitch gets to be painted as a hero while I'm still the "lazy" disabled child?
I can't even believe my mother would save anyone. I can't imagine the hard time she probably gave the man she supposedly saved - especially because my brother said the cops arrived, and I can only assume she called them. I'm sure many of us already know how poorly cops handle attempted suicide.
I'm honestly having trouble processing that the woman he was talking about was my mother. It's bothering me a lot, and I can barely put my feelings into words right now. The woman who threatened to beat the shit out of me, laughed in my face for an eating disorder, and routinely gives me shit about my disability... Supposedly saved a man. It doesn't fucking make sense no matter how I think about it.
I hate this.
My mom is abusive, emotionally and mentally. She's been gaslighting me for many years and hasn't cared about my mental or physical well-being. I'm disabled so I often need help she isn't willing to give. It's led me to not get enough food each day because she'll go out to eat with her friends, leaving me home without buying groceries. If we have groceries I'm often bedridden and can't stand up to make food. I honestly can't remember the last time I had more than two meals in a day.
She knows this, and has made fun of me for "rationing food to myself" to her friends like it was a joke - right in front of me. She gets mad at me for eating things in the fridge because she "was going to cook that" when she never told me that beforehand and it was sitting in the fridge long enough to start going bad soon.
She's very back-and-forth as well - the other day she offered to buy me food, and after paying for it she got very serious and said "you just cost me 18 dollars." like she was angry at me. At no point prior to paying did she say the food was too expensive and ask me to get something cheaper - and I would have accommodated if she did. Not even 30 minutes after, she offered to take me out to the mall and buy me new clothes. It's really classic gaslighting and love-bombing, and it happens so rapidly I often get dizzy interacting with her.
That's not the entire story, because I'd be typing my entire life story if I tried to say everything she does, but TL;DR - my mom does not treat me well and doesn't care about my mental/physical health. I'm saying all of this to try and fully demonstrate how much she truly doesn't care about my wellbeing. With that in mind...
I was told by my brother earlier that my mom wouldn't be home for a while, because my mother "saved a man from jumping off the bridge." and I was honestly stunned. She's never cared about helping me, and yet she'll help a random stranger? Are you fucking serious? The same woman who yells at me because I can't walk or stand long enough to clean for very long? That bitch gets to be painted as a hero while I'm still the "lazy" disabled child?
I can't even believe my mother would save anyone. I can't imagine the hard time she probably gave the man she supposedly saved - especially because my brother said the cops arrived, and I can only assume she called them. I'm sure many of us already know how poorly cops handle attempted suicide.
I'm honestly having trouble processing that the woman he was talking about was my mother. It's bothering me a lot, and I can barely put my feelings into words right now. The woman who threatened to beat the shit out of me, laughed in my face for an eating disorder, and routinely gives me shit about my disability... Supposedly saved a man. It doesn't fucking make sense no matter how I think about it.
I hate this.