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Wisdom3_1-9
he/him/his
- Jul 19, 2020
- 1,954
There are so many things I want to say, but I can't.
I want to tell the Judas who betrayed me and ruined my life exactly what he's done to me. I want to call him the worst things imaginable. I want to swear and yell at him. I want to ask him why. But I can't.
I want to tell my husband that I regret marrying him, not because I don't love him, but because I dragged him into my shitty life. I want to ask him if he still loves me. I want to ask him if he doesn't want to be with me anymore. But I don't have the courage.
I want to tell my mother about the horrible pain I'm in every day. I want to tell her that I wish I could just give everything up and leave this life. I want to tell her that this world is not for people like me. But it will break her heart.
I want to scream and cry all day long. I want to sob at my desk at work. I want to let everyone know how awful everything is and how I should just be dead. I want to tell everyone to leave me alone, but at the same time ask for their comfort. But I can't let anyone know.
I just have to stay silent.
For as long as I can.
I want to tell the Judas who betrayed me and ruined my life exactly what he's done to me. I want to call him the worst things imaginable. I want to swear and yell at him. I want to ask him why. But I can't.
I want to tell my husband that I regret marrying him, not because I don't love him, but because I dragged him into my shitty life. I want to ask him if he still loves me. I want to ask him if he doesn't want to be with me anymore. But I don't have the courage.
I want to tell my mother about the horrible pain I'm in every day. I want to tell her that I wish I could just give everything up and leave this life. I want to tell her that this world is not for people like me. But it will break her heart.
I want to scream and cry all day long. I want to sob at my desk at work. I want to let everyone know how awful everything is and how I should just be dead. I want to tell everyone to leave me alone, but at the same time ask for their comfort. But I can't let anyone know.
I just have to stay silent.
For as long as I can.