Motivation for ctb!!!

[SadGirl]

motivation for ctb, when everything sucks.

 

[Squiddy]

I still haven't gotten the courage to, but for me, knowing that I'll finally be at peace at last (at least I think and hope)

 

[yep]

Just thinking about how there'll be no more pain no more hurt , no more nothing. But it's kinda like yin and yang the bad side is that there is just nothingness and after you die( I haven't died tho). It's scary but also peaceful to think about.

 

[SadGirl]

I'm afraid of death, of uncertainty, and I'm afraid of the uncertainty of life, I don't know what to choose

 

[feast or famine]

I'm afraid of death, of uncertainty, and I'm afraid of the uncertainty of life, I don't know what to choose

I feel this 100%.

 

[nitroautnz]

I'm afraid of death, of uncertainty, and I'm afraid of the uncertainty of life, I don't know what to choose

I think a lot of us are like that, I wanted to cut my brachial artery I have everything ready a warm bath, taking a lot of aspirin that day too, a very sharp knife, I am a butcher so that help and I located the best place to cut without going too deep. But I chickened out because of the pain I was going to cause, I did buy a bottle of vodka for help but wasn't sure that being drunk would help to be precise and fast ...

But I'am personally more afraid to fail ctb than to die

 

[SadGirl]

		I think a lot of us are like that, I wanted to cut my brachial artery I have everything ready a warm bath, taking a lot of aspirin that day too, a very sharp knife, I am a butcher so that help and I located the best place to cut without going too deep. But I chickened out because of the pain I was going to cause, I did buy a bottle of vodka for help but wasn't sure that being drunk would help to be precise and fast ... But I'am personally more afraid to fail ctb than to die I always think about ctb with partial suspension, and ingesting a lot of xanax before, I believe it should help in these cases.

 

[nitroautnz]

		I always think about ctb with partial suspension, and ingesting a lot of xanax before, I believe it should help in these cases.

you stronger than me, the idea to get choked, even by taking Xanax (probably not too easy to find) first is too much. I try the night-night but just to find the pressure point, where a very unpleasant feeling to have the trachea a bit compress. I can't imagine the feeling of a partial suspension.

I have done a lot of research and still continue, for the best way to ctb without pain, but its not easy to find what suit us.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm afraid of death, of uncertainty, and I'm afraid of the uncertainty of life, I don't know what to choose

I know how that feels, even though days I'm beginning to fear life a lot more than death.

 

[SadGirl]

you stronger than me, the idea to get choked, even by taking Xanax (probably not too easy to find) first is too much. I try the night-night but just to find the pressure point, where a very unpleasant feeling to have the trachea a bit compress. I can't imagine the feeling of a partial suspension.

I have done a lot of research and still continue, for the best way to ctb without pain, but its not easy to find what suit us.

luckily I get xanax with fabulous ease, since I have anxiety and panic disorders.

 

[nitroautnz]

luckily I get xanax with fabulous ease, since I have anxiety and panic disorders.

I have those issue too but I always refuse to seek medication/help, maybe that didn't help too ...
Cant you OD with Xanax (i dont really know this drug) ?