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Rant incoming here, I just need to vent. My parents just went on holiday and got back today. Whilst they were away I accidentally broke a household appliance. Just something which can be replaced for £50 or less. My mother got really cross about it and acted as if I have committed a crime. And she tells me that my story about the way I broke it sounds like bullshit.

I don't want to share exact details about what happened. I'm just overly cautious about revealing something that would make it apparent to someone reading this thread who I am, in the really unlikely event that someone I know happens to read this somehow and knows who I am. Because many of my friends and family already know what happened.
But my story is more than plausible, and why the hell would I lie? I'm admitting that I was the one who broke it!

Every time I do anything wrong my mother overreact and huffs and puffs and acts as if it's the worst thing in the world. And then she gets all passive aggressive about it for ages, and then we forget about it and go on as normal eventually. But never apologises. And then will passively aggressively bring it up casually when someone else is around 'oh we cant use that at the moment because AnonymousSN broke it' just to make me feel even more small. Sick of being treated like a child, and having over the top reactions to every little thing I do, and then never getting an apology.

Sometimes in the past I have lied about something bad I did to get out of taking the blame, so maybe that's why she instantly thought I was lying even though there would be literally no benefit. Do you know one reason why some dogs sometimes eat their own poop? It's because they've been shouted at or abused in the past for doing it somewhere they shouldn't. And that's why I have in the past not always been truthful with her. I never tell lies to my Dad, and it's because he will react rationally when i do something wrong, and won't make me feel small about it. Lies i told during my childhood have direct roots from her behaviour as a mother.
 
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I can relate to the overreacting mother and irrational grudges. Your mother's reactions are more narcissistic than my mother's, but still, blowing things out of proportion, no apologies, and assuming to know what she wasn't witness to inside or outside is some crazy-making bullshit. My dad was more approachable and reasonable, so my mom would try to block and disempower him, and he's her enabler, so over the decades he came to hate me for not giving in to her control. I got rare weak admissions of her being wrong over major things, but never an apology and never an effort on her part to make amends or improve her ways, mostly she just doubles down and gets more irrational and more committed to her psychoness. She comes across as very grounded and common sense, and she mostly is, but when it comes to me, she flies off the charts. Rages, grudges, shut-outs and discards, emotional blackmail, false blame, projections, reframing, lifelong crazy-making scapegoating -- she's pulled nearly every covert manipulation in the book and I was the crazy one, the ultimate projection. Still shaking that shit off at 49. I was beaten for lying, it was usually for self-protection because her reactions to mistakes and stupid kid stuff was so over the top. It's no wonder I'm still tense and uptight, though I've come an incredibly long way.

Sending a reusable, empathetic, supportive hug.

Edit: Apologies if I made it too much about me. That wasn't my intention. This kind of shit reminds me of my shit. Wasn't trying to outdo you. Your mom wins for narcissistic traits with talking shit about you after the fact and trying to turn people against you. Your mom and mine can hang out and they'll like each other until they turn on each other. You and I can hang out, listen to them go off, and spill the popcorn from laughing.
 
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I can relate to the overreacting mother and irrational grudges. Your mother's reactions are more narcissistic than my mother's, but still, blowing things out of proportion, no apologies, and assuming to know what she wasn't witness to inside or outside is some crazy-making bullshit. My dad was more approachable and reasonable, so my mom would try to block and disempower him, and he's her enabler, so over the decades he came to hate me for not giving in to her control. I got rare weak admissions of her being wrong over major things, but never an apology and never an effort on her part to make amends or improve her ways, mostly she just doubles down and gets more irrational and more committed to her psychoness. She comes across as very grounded and common sense, and she mostly is, but when it comes to me, she flies off the charts. Rages, grudges, shut-outs and discards, emotional blackmail, false blame, projections, reframing, lifelong crazy-making scapegoating -- she's pulled nearly every covert manipulation in the book and I was the crazy one, the ultimate projection. Still shaking that shit off at 49. I was beaten for lying, it was usually for self-protection because her reactions to mistakes and stupid kid stuff was so over the top. It's no wonder I'm still tense and uptight, though I've come an incredibly long way.

Sending a reusable, empathetic, supportive hug.

Edit: Apologies if I made it too much about me. That wasn't my intention. This kind of shit reminds me of my shit. Wasn't trying to outdo you. Your mom wins for narcissistic traits with talking shit about you after the fact and trying to turn people against you. Your mom and mine can hang out and they'll like each other until they turn on each other. You and I can hang out, listen to them go off, and spill the popcorn from laughing.
Nah dont worry, it's great to hear other people's similar stories. Especially you. Because when I posted this I instantly thought of you. As I know you had had bad experiences with your mother. So I'm really grateful that you saw this and commented actually!

Honestly I think your mother outdoes mine (which I hope you don't mind me saying!). I'm fortunate enough that the abuse has never been physical. And we do actually have a good relationship most of the time. It's just occasionally that she flies off the handle like this, plus passive aggressive comments here and there. The last time (before today) I think was about 4 months ago. So I'm fortunate enough that this doesnt happen often, but it still does take its toll! I think I just need to move out. If I move out I feel like she cant treat me like a child, and stuff like this will be far more few and far between!

Also, quite off topic but I'm shocked to learn that you are 49. I have some (sometimes naive) stereotypes about the world, and so I perhaps expect people who are progressive and liberal to be of the younger generation. So as I had chalked you up to be wise and liberal in many ways I had this picture in my head that you were about 30. Weird how we create a picture in our heads of someone over the internet but really we know nothing!
 
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Also, quite off topic but I'm shocked to learn that you are 49. I have some (sometimes naive) stereotypes about the world, and so I perhaps expect people who are progressive and liberal to be of the younger generation. So as I had chalked you up to be wise and liberal in many ways I had this picture in my head that you were about 30. Weird how we create a picture in our heads of someone over the internet but really we know nothing!

I don't feel 49 except in the wisdom I've gained, especially the last few years. I'm still very much myself but more educated, confident, calm, grounded and aware than I was at 30, more autonomous with better boundaries and more equanimity. I wish at 30 I'd had all I've gained, or at least to not have had my mom all over my shit and still giving in to it! :pfff: I became progressive/liberal in my early 30s.

I'm glad you wanted me to reply. That made me smile. Thank you.
 
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I'm curious, since you owned up to breaking the appliance, did you also offer to pay or buy the replacement?
 
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I'm curious, since you owned up to breaking the appliance, did you also offer to pay or buy the replacement?
I would have, if she hadn't told me I was paying for it instantly, like it was a punishment she was dishing out to a teenager with glee written all over her face. I am more than happy to pay for it but would have loved the opportunity to have actually offered to do so myself, and not had it thrown in my face like that!
 
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Omg, buy her another one, and buy something else she already has. Right after you give her the replacement, break the other thing in front of her, and while she's bitching don't say anything, just calmly walk to your room, return with the replacement, set it on the counter, drop the mic and walk tf away.
 
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Update if anyone is interested. She apologised and we made up. Obviously would be great for stuff like this not to happen in the first place, but it's a great start at least. Thanks everyone for listening!
 
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Update if anyone is interested. She apologised and we made up. Obviously would be great for stuff like this not to happen in the first place, but it's a great start at least. Thanks everyone for listening!

Wow, she knows how to apologize. I'm jealous! :pfff:
 
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