mother doesn't want to find me

[IM3DUS4]

hey all, i want to be comfortable and alone in the end, but i had to promise my mother that if i ever ctb she wouldn't have to find me.
I understand this is super important, but for me, ctb in my bedroom, where i feel the most safe and comfortable is one of my top priorities.
i don't know what to do... grant me my own wish and ruin my mother's life or ctb in a cold and dark place.

 

[shadow999]

IMO it really should be your choice. I'm guessing you want to end your suffering. It really ultimately is up to you. Maybe get a hotel room? But I understand wanting to be in a familiar place. You really don't owe anyone anything. There's got to be a happy medium though.

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

You could leave a note at your door warning them about what has occurred, like I plan on doing. I promised the same to a family member. But as shadow999 said, it is your choice and you don't necessarily have an obligation to hide your body from their sight. Although, it would be a kind gesture. It's up to you.

 

[IM3DUS4]

You could leave a note at your door warning them about what has occurred, like I plan on doing. I promised the same to a family member. But as shadow999 said, it is your choice and you don't necessarily have an obligation to hide your body from their sight. Although, it would be a kind gesture. It's up to you.

the note is indeed a very good idea! ty

 

[thenorthern]

Like others have said you don't owe anyone anything. It is a terrible situation everybody is in.