Venting Mornings are worst

[Girobatol]

There´s no worst moment than when I wake up in the mornings. I take my psych meds that drive me crazy bad, and in the mornings I wake up in pain. I have my magic potion to ctb and think mornings are when my SI is at the lowest. I should just wake up and drink it, having antiemetics the night prior.

 

[CaptainT]

Mornings are brutal - when you wake up from sleep and remember where you are / the situation you're in.

 

[Nem]

Mornings are tough...it means you're still alive which is bad! After a few moments of waking up the suicidal thoughts come to action, this is no way to live if it can even be called living
Peace/hugs

 

[CrushedHopes]

Mornings are brutal - when you wake up from sleep and remember where you are / the situation you're in.

Ain't that the truth. Ever since I got outed, I wished that I would wake up to find out that I had gone back in time to at least Feb 2016, before I began to spell my own demise.

 

[Nem]

Ain't that the truth. Ever since I got outed, I wished that I would wake up to find out that I had gone back in time to at least Feb 2016, before I began to spell my own demise.

I know it sucks, going back to that date would help but I need to go back even further
Peace/hugs

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Mornings are even worse if you don't sleep in the first place.

 

[MisanthropicLycan]

Mornings are pure hell for me. I revolt and rebel against being awake as much as possible. This conscious reality is total torture.

 

[trynacbt]

Yep, the weight of another day ahead. At night at least all there is left is sleep—though recently my dreams have just continued the torture for me.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I'm asleep - I might be having a nightmare - I wake up - now I'm really in a nightmare! I'm normally happier in my dreams even when they are not good ones.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm asleep - I might be having a nightmare - I wake up - now I'm really in a nightmare!

Lol yes my nightmares are better than real life.

 

[Fragile]

I agree, mornings are terrible.

that's when the effects of the drugs end and the comedown starts, there is nothing worse than vomiting due to pure anxiety.

 

[GreyMonkey]

I get startled awake after intrusive dreams of her. It's awful. Then I wake up and my brain hurts and my heart hurts and I just wanna die. Fuck I hate mornings so bad.

Every day a disappointment to be awake.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

For me it's not like that, I can have a breakdown every time of the day which causes suicidal urges. But my sn is still in the post...

 

[Dishonorable]

I hate mornings too, because I know a new shitty day is ahead of me. and getting up is always such a struggle. I plan to ctb in the morning too.

 

[JimFord99]

Yes, any time of the day the thoughts and urges come up. But, more frequently in the morning. Odd.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I wake up around 7-8AM every morning because I don't sleep well.

Be cool if I didn't wake up at all. It's stressful as well, but I'm still waiting on my SN.

 

[Despairing]

For about a minute I am ok and then wham!

 

[MourningHeart]

The moment i wake up in bed, open my eyes and slowly realize that i'm alive and still in the same situation (aka nightmare) as all the days before....

 

[Mr2005]

I wake up, it's not 2004 anymore and nothing else matters. I start regretting what I didn't do then as soon as I wake up. I'm normally exhausted and ready to go back to bed in only a couple of hours

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Waking up and realizing I'm still alive is the worst thing I experience everyday. Wish I died while sleeping.

I hate mornings too, because I know a new shitty day is ahead of me. and getting up is always such a struggle. I plan to ctb in the morning too.

Me too. I always liked day more than night.

 

[Mloureiro]

Even worst when feeling like that you still have to wake at 6 am, get ready, 1,5 commute to job, 9 hours there, which you hate and 1,5 to come back, in a "good day: hell is here on earth. But somebody has to pay the bills, so for me is "suck it up ...

 

[issyishere]

The cruelest joke is when you have an amazing dream. Life is good and everything just makes sense. Then you open your eyes and wake up to this nightmare.

 

[Yoko26]

There´s no worst moment than when I wake up in the mornings. I take my psych meds that drive me crazy bad, and in the mornings I wake up in pain. I have my magic potion to ctb and think mornings are when my SI is at the lowest. I should just wake up and drink it, having antiemetics the night prior.

My dear! I totally feel you! My newlywed husband passed away in a car wreck a month ago and every single morning it's super difficult to wake up and realize I didn't passed away while sleeping...it's when all the nightmare becomes reality and you wish you weren't alive the most!

Waking up and realizing I'm still alive is the worst thing I experience everyday. Wish I died while sleeping.

Me too. I always liked day more than night.

I feel the same! Have you tried anything to die while sleeping? I was thinking on sleeping pills but then I've researched and you don't die you just get poisoned. :(

 

[Rising Phoenix]

There´s no worst moment than when I wake up in the mornings. I take my psych meds that drive me crazy bad, and in the mornings I wake up in pain. I have my magic potion to ctb and think mornings are when my SI is at the lowest. I should just wake up and drink it, having antiemetics the night prior.

My preferred time would be in the morning too, or soon after in the afternoon.

 

[Kodama]

Your right... morning sucks, especially in November