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[bonnieps>]

today is my brothers birthday I did try my best to not mess it up. This morning as a joke with my dad I said well I'm responsible….my mom started laughing, at first it was normal they all did but then she wouldn't stop. She got so red and just wouldn't stop laughing. Then she turned and looked at me it's like she couldn't contain herself. Eventually she ran into her room. She just couldn't stop. And it hurt so bad. I have always noticed her favoritism. I have tried so hard to meet her standards but it seems like the bar just keeps getting higher. She doesn't have these same expectations for my siblings. What makes me suicidal is my mom. This isn't the first time she puts me down in front of the family. What hurts most is she knows I'm struggling. I have major depressive disorder and I have to fight my head everyday. Self worth is something I don't have much of and have fought hard to get but she always tears it down. I was already hanging on by a thread. I just need a few more pushes and I'll do it.

 

[EternalShore]

I'm sorry that you're stuck around her, and that she constantly ruins your day with her expectations of you and making fun of you like that~ :/ My mom can be rather bothersome too~ :( if she's a lot of reason behind it, it won't improve all at once, but it'll probably get better once you move out~ I wish you the best and wish you success~ :)

 

[Wolf Girl]

I'm so sorry. That is very cruel. No one should be mocked for having an illness. You are not lazy or irresponsible, you're just sick rn.

 

[bonnieps>]

I'm sorry that you're stuck around her, and that she constantly ruins your day with her expectations of you and making fun of you like that~ :/ My mom can be rather bothersome too~ :( if she's a lot of reason behind it, it won't improve all at once, but it'll probably get better once you move out~ I wish you the best and wish you success~ :)

You're right I just have to make it out. Thank you for the encouragement, it was very much needed

I'm so sorry. That is very cruel. No one should be mocked for having an illness. You are not lazy or irresponsible, you're just sick rn.

it feels nice to know someone understands, thank you