Mixing diazepam and alcohol

[wildflowers1996]

I'm thinking of trying to get some high dose diazepam off the dark web and mix it with alcohol.
I know this won't kill me - I just want to turn my thoughts off for a while and just feel calm. Will this work?
Also is it possible to get high off diazepam? I'm too scared to do any other drug because the last thing I want is to feel more anxious; I need something calming

 

[Ash]

I've never mixed the two and wouldn't want to. I suspect it would end with a lot of confusion, falling over and vomiting.

 

[wildflowers1996]

I don't mind the confusion as long as it's not distressing. Falling over I could avoid if I just stay in bed; I don't want to vomit though :( I just thought it'd be a way of feeling ultra calm but I looked it up and it's saying a possible effect is anxiety??? I thought it would be a way of feeling ultra calm; I definitely don't want to make the anxiety worse.