Railiah P
Member
- Nov 7, 2020
- 32
I have manic episodes... I'm having one now. Now that I can see clearly for myself, I'm scared. I'm happy right now. I'm hopeful. I'm in love. But less than 24hours ago I felt the opposite. I'm scared because when I feel like I want to CTB, I can't. Then time passes and I feel the complete opposite. I'm scared that one day I might CTB and regret it. Or maybe I wont CTB and regret it. I'm torn between two extremes. However, I am extremely grateful to have found a community of people who might just understand what I am going through and not shame me into oblivion about my unexplainable disgust for this world and my indecisiveness about being here. With that being said.... Hello, I'm Railiah. Nice to meet you.
