Methods 1&2 are hopeless. What is plan c

[waterhead]

So it's very clear I'm not going to get my hands on SN in the amount of time I can stomach this. Sadly it seems that .45 might have roadblocks as well due to being committed 2x. Funny enough the second time I told myself the next time I'd eat a bullet and avoid all of that…now I can't even do that.

My apartment has nowhere for me to hang. Blood choke isn't sure enough. The thought of another week of this makes me want to drive my car into a tree. But I want this to be quiet. Idw a scene or a story. I just want a fucking solution.

I feel myself getting erratic and I'm considering stupid methods. I feel trapped like an animal backed in a corner. I don't want to leave a mess for people. And that is the only reason I have fought this long, my mom and dad. But I am suffering too much to care anymore. I know it's fucked up but I just want them to identify my body in the least traumatic way possible. That's literally the only thing I want. That was the whole point of SN, I could give a fuck abt a painless death. But now I'm going to hurt the only people who ever loved me. I deserve to rot for that alone

 

[Chito and Yuuri]

Hm... you could try carbon monoxide poisoning in your car, and the best part is that you could do it in your parking lot, not even somewhere in the middle of the forest, though it's probably better that you actually do it in the forest just because it give you less of a chance of getting caught in the act.

Also, you could do the self strangulation in the car while carbon monoxide poisoning yourself as well if you want, just saying, just saying.