Discussion Mentally and/or physically?

[Ratherbeskinny]

If one of these apply to you, which one is it?

1. Suffering mentally - reason for ctb
2. Suffering physically - reason for ctb
3. Both of the above - reason for ctb
4. Other;

For me it's 1. Suffering mentally. It's not the only reason ofcourse, but it's still a big part of why I wanna ctb.

 

[trynacbt]

For me it's 1, and my suffering is mostly born of my conviction that I cannot be independent (despite having no disabilities).

 

[Girobatol]

1. Bipolar disorder gone bad.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Both physically and mentally, apathy and anhedonia is a strong reason why I want to ctb "life" is so incredibly boring it´s insane how trivial, mundane and boring every day life is there are no more adventures for me in adulthood, in the past (childhood and teenage years) there was so much fun, excitement and adventure in life now it´s all so insanely boring.

 

[sammii]

1. Mentally for me. Severe anxiety, depression, autism, loneliness, self hatred, plus I'm pretty much useless at everything.

 

[MeltingHeart]

1 but that kind of runs into 2 now as I am not looking after myself at all so it's having physical repercussions - but initially psychological pain & anguish. I don't hve a mental illness as such - but have become what I would call emotionally distraught & somewhat emotionally disturbed also.

 

[Ame]

If I were to boil it down:

1. Suffering mentally & 4. Other

Some of my desire to CBT is derived from mental illness and the anguish that comes with it but even if I were to be cured tomorrow, I cannot be bothered to salvage what remains of my life.

 

[Mr. Sensitive]

3 and 4

 

[Foster13]

2

 

[GarbagelifeNohope]

1. Mentally for me. Severe anxiety, depression, autism, loneliness, self hatred, plus I'm pretty much useless at everything.

Same boat. I took the time to sorta train myself on how to act and respond in social situations, but at the end of the day, im still awkward no matter what I do. I dont function normal socially and I know getting help wont change anything. You cant cure autism. I am alone in everything I do, and always will be. Anxiety and depression only put me deeper in the hole. My family is dysfunctional. I was tormented as a child by my mother and got fucked up in the head for good. Didnt help that I pretty much had to grow myself up. I had everything, and nothing. Dad only came back around when I was 13. I dont speak to any family but him, and even now, may years later, I hold resentment for him leaving me to fend for myself.

 

[Rising Phoenix]

4 have nitrogen kit, and fentanyl on hand in case my hrmwalth worsens, currently not suicidal though.
You should have done a poll with more options.

 

[woxihuanni]

4. I don't want to survive cheerfully a single life anymore, neither do I want to get with a random person just not to be single. I could survive cheerfully, it just turns my stomach.

 

[Cupcake]

4. I don't want to survive cheerfully a single life anymore, neither do I want to get with a random person just not to be single. I could survive cheerfully, it just turns my stomach.

For me, it's mostly reason 1, although my blindness frustrates me to some degree.

I mostly want to die because of my bipolar disorder, though. Can't take the constant ups and downs.

To me, it feels like a roller coaster that I just can't get off of. I often call it Bipolar Express.

 

[woxihuanni]

For me, it's mostly reason 1, although my blindness frustrates me to some degree.

I mostly want to die because of my bipolar disorder, though. Can't take the constant ups and downs.

To me, it feels like a roller coaster that I just can't get off of. I often call it Bipolar Express.

How much can you see?

 

[RealLostSoul]

tbh i don't even know anymore if my tons of severe mental diseases aren't something anatomical. or at least created something anatomical. like they should study my brain tissue after I passed away, maybe they will find a tumor or brain damage or whatever.

 

[brain problems]

All of the above? My brain is wack, this meat vessel never stops hurting, and the equally messed up people I'm surrounded by aren't making it any better lmayo

 

[Wintergirl666]

It's the first one for me -.- Depression, PDSD (if it's written that way, I only know the german version of it^^"), anorexia, self hatred (I'm even self harming), sever anxiety (I'm seriously scared of crowds so I can never go to a concert of my favorite KPop Band -.-) and I'm annoying and useless for everyone. Even my English's annoying cuz I'm too dumb for this language...^^"

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

3/4 (add financial destitution)

 

[Neurodamaged2]

#1. Neurological damage via long term chemical (medicine and drugs) use then a round in the psych wards with electroshock and sprinkle on a few failed hangings and overdoses. Ta-da, brain is now mush.

 

[Rachel74]

Both for me x

 

[brainpain2]

Both. Moreso the chronic pain but the bipolar disorder is the icing on the cake. The two feed off each other but I'm not eligible for disability because they don't exactly believe in invisible illness and my bipolar disorder isn't bad enough

 

[Sweet emotion]

I am suffering physically which has led to depression, anxiety and isolation.

 

[NotForThisWorld]

3. Mentally and physically.

 

[hobbydevil]

3 - both.

I struggle with my mental health because I struggle with my physical health. And my physical ailments were caused by mental health treatment gone wrong, so here we are, full circle.

 

[CrushedHopes]

1 - Suffering mentally. I used to be a very confident person, but it all came crashing down ever since I got doxed, so now I have severe depression, and I want to CTB to end it all. My parents would definitely not let me CTB, and calling suicide hotlines is definitely pointless, since they're just gonna try to talk me out of it, with the same cliched lines. Very few people could understand the true pain and agony of not being able to do what you love anymore, for the rest of your life. Though, I'm sure the wonderful people here could at least empathize with my suffering so that I could at least live the final moments of my life in bliss.

 

[Élégie]

1 - Existential angst, hopelessness, disordered eating, body dysmorphia, obsessive tendencies (perfectionism), low self-esteem, feeling of shame and inadequacy...

My mental/emotional problems are mostly due to some unfortunate circumstances in childhood/teenagehood and the fact that I was a highly sensitive kid.

 

[Cupcake]

How much can you see?

I can see a little bit, but not enough to read print or drive. I am what the government deams legally blind.

The colors I can recognize prety well are dark blue, which is one of my favorites, and I can usually identify red, though I sometimes get red mixed with yellow and orange and vice versa. I also get white, light grey, and silver mixed up.

I can tell light colors from dark ones.

I am a braille reader and use a screen reader called Jaws to navigate the Internet.

I have trouble seeing steps that go down, which is why I have to use a cane everywhere I go. Steps leading up aren't as hard to see for me. It has to do with depth perception.

I was born blind, so I really don't know what I'm missing in terms of sight. I'm glad I was born blind rather than be born sighted and lose it due to some accident or illness. To me, I'd rather just not know what I am missing than to know and lose it all.

I hope that answers your question. Feel free to ask more if you wish.

 

[Reyki6667]

3.

 

[Kodama]

4... Fear of restart from scratch with no money because of my near (personal) bankruptcy ... And perhaps because i'm tired of the way this world works!

 

[bigj75]

both. it sucks.