Memory issues

[divinemistress36]

Does anyone else want to ctb cause they have bad memory issues ? I can't remember so many events that happened in my life and when people bring up all this stuff I can't remember I just break out in tears

 

[Nikitatos]

Yeah....sucks when your memory goes. I can relate. Unfortunately, failing memory isn't even a top 10 problem for me :(

Like you said, more than the memory, it's the social problems it causes. Terrible.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

My memory was never great but now it's worse. I'm sorry you have memory issues as well.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

It's not a reason for CTBing for me but my episodic memory definitely leaves a lot to be desired, especially given my age (23). My earliest memory is from when I was about 10 years old. Didn't know that wasn't normal until the topic came up with others and to a person their memories all started at like 2-4. I have also been known to have "false memories," so whenever I remember something from childhood/teenagehood I have to corroborate it with my brother to see if it was even real. And the last weird thing about my memory is that I see all of them, no matter how recent, from an observer's POV.

 

[justpeachyyyy]

Depression is said to cause memory issues. I can only remember certain things from my life now from years ago yet can't remember what I did earlier in the day. I've heard that when depression is managed a bit better memories can come back and can form better, I don't think they're just gone forever besides the typical way of losing memories when they're just too old or mundane stuff your brain doesn't necessarily need.
If I ever want to remember certain events I'm considering doing stuff like chewing a specific flavor of gum like how it's said if you chew it while studying you remember better for a test or something like that or by making a very clear mental note to remember something.

 

[Crash_Bash_Dash]

Yes, definitely! Before, I had quite sharp memory but it has become duller this year. Nothing seems to stimulate my mind, even the music. And I have learning problems too nowadays. I can barely absorb any information or pay attention (so I have to reread everything multiple times and even then I probably won't comprehend what I am reading) and the ability to learn has gotten worse because of that. All the terminology and definitions what seemed clear to me before and the events that have happened to me and in the world also seem to have become more obscure somehow. I think I lack of commitment to learning too. This is just sad...

 

[rozeske]

It's not on my reasons list but it's really bad and doesn't make my life any easier. I feel like I've had it for most of my adult life, someone here connected it to childhood truma and it kind of makes sense. Usually people bring up stuff and I have no recollection of it, none. Sometimes I lie and pretend to minimize their shock. Not to mention the full on conversations I have at night that I don't remember in the mornings. Maybe it should have been among my reasons...

 

[divinemistress36]

Yes, definitely! Before, I had quite sharp memory but it has become duller this year. Nothing seems to stimulate my mind, even the music. And I have learning problems too nowadays. I can barely absorb any information or pay attention (so I have to reread everything multiple times and even then I probably won't comprehend what I am reading) and the ability to learn has gotten worse because of that. All the terminology and definitions what seemed clear to me before and the events that have happened to me and in the world also seem to have become more obscure somehow. I think I lack of commitment to learning too. This is just sad...

Same ! Like I try to read and I just end up forgetting everything I read

 

[M48 Patton]

My working memory is pretty bad. Host of other things too. In all honesty I just want to be able to work properly but I can't seem too

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Yes. And I can't concentrate or focus either.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I can barely remember anything. I think I've been forgetting how to properly speak English so I've had to relearn how to use certain punctuation or words. I have repetitive behaviors because of it too, I forget what I just did and it causes anxiety and to cure that anxiety I do the action again possibility multiple times. I even have false memories because my brain fills in the blank. Sometimes I even forget or misremember what I'm responding to and write a multiple paragraph response that isn't even on-topic so I have to constantly read back over my own message as well as what I'm responding to if I don't want to look like an idiot. Whenever I'm looking at older messages I don't feel anything from them but I do know that I at some point wrote them and can even disagree on what I wrote a month or two prior which is a bizarre feeling.

I've accepted that I'm an unreliable narrator and to second-guess pretty much anything I remember. For me it's not a major reason to CTB but certainly an annoyance.

 

[karmaisabitch]

Does anyone else want to ctb cause they have bad memory issues ? I can't remember so many events that happened in my life and when people bring up all this stuff I can't remember I just break out in tears

I'm the opposite! I wanna die because I remember so much.. I remember every second about my son. If I have a memory loss I prob in less pain now

 

[Onelegman]

I have been noticing for years how difficult it is for me to remember many parts of my life. I only remember the most notable, traumatic or happy events, but everything in between... nothing. I have always been like a robot, I memorize data and observe things and learn, but going to family parties, normal conversations or important things like going to buy food, doing business with doctors... nothing.

I know that it happens to me in part because of the isolation, the ostracism, and the little medication I take, but daily. I fear that one day things will get worse and I won't be able to be an... effective person, who can lead a half-normal life. It doesn't worry me too much to know that I don't remember many things now, but I can't help it.

 

[Hollowman]

Yeah it's one of the main reasons I need to check out.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

I've forgotten a lot of the past few years like 2015-2023, I remembered everything before I got fucked up by the Hospital, now I only recall the last few months and how bad it is compared to moments I remember before it.