Help Memories of the past rape me at night

[Surai]

Why can't I forget the past. It tortures me in a sick twisted way. Tearing at my ego. My sense of self. A feeling like I am being raped. Needlessly by nature to prove a point. That I live on a planet full of animals. To tear each other apart. Mentally, physically. Spiritually. I wish it could end. But every night before I close my eyes. I'm reminded of all the horrible things I've had to endure. Of all the things I wish I could forget. Moments where Lobotomy doesn't look too bad. And just when I thought it could be over. I have to endure something I never thought could reach me. Just to get the past out of my head. If only I could. But They rape me every night. And are reaped each day. Humans try too hard to hide their nature. But that's the beauty of it right. Its just some of us have become so aware of it. Of our true ruler. What we are slaves to. The nature of being an animal on planet earth. The nature of having to consume and destroy just to survive. And the fleeting feeling of multiplying. Just to die. I guess it had to be this way. To defy and thrive in such a world. I guess I just wish I wasn't a part of it. I guess I just wish I wasn't in a world full of animals. The fact I was able to be brought in terrifies me. I truly hope we can escape.

 

[unluckysadness]

I have the same feeling of being raped by my traumatic memories, maily at night. My body can shake sometimes. It must be a symptom of PTSD. I've also already thought about lobotomy.

I wish us peace. That's all we need.

 

[Chocomel]

Yes this is such a grim world that we're living in. The more you realize about it, the more it will haunts you, and that makes me uncomfortable too. I don't know, I just wish I can ignore it, but I always concious about it