Discussion Meds are evil and a joke of a solution

[liquid jen]

Been on vilazodone for just over a month I believe, and they're doubling my dose soon. I hate this so fucking much. The only reason medications like this exists is to delay the inevitable and keep us cattle alive. People in power mold this already shitty world into an even shittier one where us modern serfs rot and then gain money from the production of our "cures." These don't cure shit. They alter your fucking brain chemicals. By taking medications are we not just altering us fundamentally as people? I am no longer the same me I was beforehand, and if I continue this shit another year I won't be recognizable. Is a happy me a real me? I don't think so at this point. Not that this shit is even working so far to begin with. No noticeable changes, only side effects. Every couple mornings I get plagued with stomach-aches and migraines and increased ideation. Today specifically I couldn't get the intrusive thought of stabbing myself with a pen out for at least an hour. The urge was so strong I was feeling the weird phantom-pressure on those points. My wrists and throat. Like I HAD to, like when you have to scratch an itch. I'm doomed to take myself out. This is my fate. I don't even care anymore, at least not in reference to me. I hate that this shit effects everybody. I dunno, maybe I shouldn't care at all. Maybe everybody sucks. I suck. Maybe everybody's better and I'm just a crazy person rambling.

 

[Topaz111]

Things like "depression" and "anxiety" are almost always if not always a logical, rational reaction of a brain put through immense suffering, trauma, pressure, stress. Living in an unhealthy society, constant fight or flight state. They won't fix the root causes or systemic issues, but they will happily sell us pills to numb us. I have tried 10+ psych meds, they all made me tired, foggy, numb, apathetic, stupid, forgetful, a zombie basically. I understand not every medication is meant to cure things permanently, some diseases can only be "managed", but it's not like these pills make you "happy", they just make you numb, or too tired to care. You're not crazy for noticing any of this, it's a heavily suppressed issue though so few people understand.

 

[Forveleth]

I am sorry you are having a hard time on your meds. Is vilazodone the first medication you have taken for depression? It takes a while for these drugs to take full effect (sometimes two months). It can also take several tries to find the drug that works the best with your particular brain chemistry. If you are having such terrible side effects, I would talk to your doctor about it and see if they can switch you to something else that may work better.