Meaning

[brokeandbroken]

So I made a post a while back asking if people loved themselves. I have a similar question. Does your life have meaning? If your life had meaning would you delay or cancel the bus?

As for me. Unfortunately, my life had meaning and it was stolen from me. I wish my life had meaning. It's probably been the greatest contributor.... Everything feels so meaningless.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Nope, no meaning.

And looking back, when I had some, it was all artificial made up nonsense anyway. BS I told myself, just to feel better about my pointless existence!

 

[brokeandbroken]

Nope, no meaning.

And looking back, when I had some, it was all artificial made up nonsense anyway. BS I told myself, just to feel better about my pointless existence!

I can understand that. Thank you.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

My life used to have meaning as well. It was ripped away by some evil people.

 

[brokeandbroken]

My life used to have meaning as well. It was ripped away by some evil people.

I'm terribly sorry to hear that. I know what it is like. Hopefully you are able to find it again.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm terribly sorry to hear that. I know what it is like. Hopefully you are able to find it again.

It won't be coming back. It's the main reason I want to CTB... Or one of them.

 

[Forever Sleep]

That's probably the main reason I'm here. The meaning my life used to have doesn't quite have the same appeal as it used to. My creative job used to be everything to me. I still care about doing a good job but my heart isn't in it as much. Mainly because of late- I've been sure I would have to give it up for financial reasons. I suppose I've tried to fall out of love with it so it will hurt less when I have to leave it. That leaves me with nothing though. I'll do what I can to fill the gap. Maybe more normal things like earning money and spending it on holidays etc. Seems kind of ridiculous though to work a wage slave job you hate to support a life you're really not too fussed about keeping- in fact- you'd rather not have to maintain! I don't want to be a slave to this corrupt capitalist society.

 

[doneforlife]

That's probably the main reason I'm here. The meaning my life used to have doesn't quite have the same appeal as it used to. My creative job used to be everything to me. I still care about doing a good job but my heart isn't in it as much. Mainly because of late- I've been sure I would have to give it up for financial reasons. I suppose I've tried to fall out of love with it so it will hurt less when I have to leave it. That leaves me with nothing though. I'll do what I can to fill the gap. Maybe more normal things like earning money and spending it on holidays etc. Seems kind of ridiculous though to work a wage slave job you hate to support a life you're really not too fussed about keeping- in fact- you'd rather not have to maintain! I don't want to be a slave to this corrupt capitalist society.

I couldn't have worded it better. It's the same for me. Added to the above also lies the fact that the future is uncertain, AI uprising, severe climatic conditions, health deterioration as we age , no one to genuinely care ..and the list goes on.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's no point to my existence and there never could be. Having the ability to exist in this dreadful reality was just something I was so cruelly and unnecessarily burdened with and I'm just waiting to cease existing, I don't desire existence at all, I see nothing desirable about decaying from age in an existence I never wished to endure in the first place. Eventually I will just be completely forgotten about like I never existed at all, I'm just an insignificant existing being destined for nothingness.

I see existence as being nothing more than meaningless suffering and senseless cruelty all for no reason, all for no purpose, existence is just a horrific, tragic mistake where existing beings are forced here just to suffer so unnecessarily until they return to the ideal state of non-existence.

 

[brokeandbroken]

It won't be coming back. It's the main reason I want to CTB... Or one of them.

I can't say i feel differently.

That's probably the main reason I'm here. The meaning my life used to have doesn't quite have the same appeal as it used to. My creative job used to be everything to me. I still care about doing a good job but my heart isn't in it as much. Mainly because of late- I've been sure I would have to give it up for financial reasons. I suppose I've tried to fall out of love with it so it will hurt less when I have to leave it. That leaves me with nothing though. I'll do what I can to fill the gap. Maybe more normal things like earning money and spending it on holidays etc. Seems kind of ridiculous though to work a wage slave job you hate to support a life you're really not too fussed about keeping- in fact- you'd rather not have to maintain! I don't want to be a slave to this corrupt capitalist society.

Sounds like you are a little burnt out. Have you thought about trying to get a different fresh creative job?

I couldn't have worded it better. It's the same for me. Added to the above also lies the fact that the future is uncertain, AI uprising, severe climatic conditions, health deterioration as we age , no one to genuinely care ..and the list goes on.

Hey at least an AI uprising would be interesting.

There's no point to my existence and there never could be. Having the ability to exist in this dreadful reality was just something I was so cruelly and unnecessarily burdened with and I'm just waiting to cease existing, I don't desire existence at all, I see nothing desirable about decaying from age in an existence I never wished to endure in the first place. Eventually I will just be completely forgotten about like I never existed at all, I'm just an insignificant existing being destined for nothingness.

I see existence as being nothing more than meaningless suffering and senseless cruelty all for no reason, all for no purpose, existence is just a horrific, tragic mistake where existing beings are forced here just to suffer so unnecessarily until they return to the ideal state of non-existence.

Wow that is well worded but difficult to hear. Probably not untrue though. How many souls have died who's name people no longer utter.

 

[Unattainable666]

My life had meaning until my child was murdered.
My life had meaning until my child was murdered.

 

[brokeandbroken]

My life had meaning until my child was murdered.
My life had meaning until my child was murdered.

I am tremendously sorry to hear that. That is enormously tragic.

 

[Unattainable666]

I am tremendously sorry to hear that. That is enormously tragic.

Thank you I appreciate your kindness

 

[Forever Sleep]

Sounds like you are a little burnt out. Have you thought about trying to get a different fresh creative job?

Thanks but no- I don't think it's burn out. It's more living with the uncertainty of it. Especially the financial uncertainty. My life has generally followed the pattern of: freelance creative to running low on funds to finding a more stable but slightly less creative job (it's usually a middle management position) to becoming stressed and depressed basically doing two jobs- the middle management role plus trying to hang on to being creative to: back to being freelance to back to a more stable job and so on and so on. Honestly- I've tried LOTS of things already! Plus- creative jobs are VERY hard to find in this day and age and my field is quite specialist really. But thanks- I appreciate the response.

 

[DeathSleep]

I have no meaning/purpose to my life. I simply exist... aimlessly wandering.

 

[SolomonKado]

So I made a post a while back asking if people loved themselves. I have a similar question. Does your life have meaning? If your life had meaning would you delay or cancel the bus?

As for me. Unfortunately, my life had meaning and it was stolen from me. I wish my life had meaning. It's probably been the greatest contributor.... Everything feels so meaningless.

My meaning was my work ethic. I always tried so hard to help others. Problem is I chose a job where staff were dangerous to each other and supervisors loved tearing staff down that they didn't like. I had seen both even do illegal things.

I was so good at what I did and my first few days at this job I was praised for how good I was. That would be the one and only time I was told "good job!" I asked my supervisor at the time a couple years later why he didn't give out positive evaluations and he said "why would I! I don't get them." The place also ran on favoritism. After about 6-7 years I had been so beat down that I started to just do my own job and ignore everyone else. It would get me in trouble less and yelled at for supposedly messing up all the time.

I did it for 14 years and it got so bad I started to have panic attacks because of an injury I got earlier this year because of how dangerous staff and supervisors were.

From what my psych doctor said was that place was full of people who couldn't make it as a police officer so they would go work at a prison because it would take anyone with a heartbeat.

I never wanted to be a cop. Too much bad news coverage on them. I should have stayed in the military… that place turned me into an alcoholic after a couple years and now is helping me choose to CTB. That place will never change because it's corrupt from the bottom to the top.

 

[outrider567]

So I made a post a while back asking if people loved themselves. I have a similar question. Does your life have meaning? If your life had meaning would you delay or cancel the bus?

As for me. Unfortunately, my life had meaning and it was stolen from me. I wish my life had meaning. It's probably been the greatest contributor.... Everything feels so meaningless.

No, my life has no meaning anymore, no meaning at all

 

[brokeandbroken]

Thanks but no- I don't think it's burn out. It's more living with the uncertainty of it. Especially the financial uncertainty. My life has generally followed the pattern of: freelance creative to running low on funds to finding a more stable but slightly less creative job (it's usually a middle management position) to becoming stressed and depressed basically doing two jobs- the middle management role plus trying to hang on to being creative to: back to being freelance to back to a more stable job and so on and so on. Honestly- I've tried LOTS of things already! Plus- creative jobs are VERY hard to find in this day and age and my field is quite specialist really. But thanks- I appreciate the response.

What is your field if you don't mind me asking?

I have no meaning/purpose to my life. I simply exist... aimlessly wandering.

Same here. It sucks. I know how difficult it is.

My meaning was my work ethic. I always tried so hard to help others. Problem is I chose a job where staff were dangerous to each other and supervisors loved tearing staff down that they didn't like. I had seen both even do illegal things.

I was so good at what I did and my first few days at this job I was praised for how good I was. That would be the one and only time I was told "good job!" I asked my supervisor at the time a couple years later why he didn't give out positive evaluations and he said "why would I! I don't get them." The place also ran on favoritism. After about 6-7 years I had been so beat down that I started to just do my own job and ignore everyone else. It would get me in trouble less and yelled at for supposedly messing up all the time.

I did it for 14 years and it got so bad I started to have panic attacks because of an injury I got earlier this year because of how dangerous staff and supervisors were.

From what my psych doctor said was that place was full of people who couldn't make it as a police officer so they would go work at a prison because it would take anyone with a heartbeat.

I never wanted to be a cop. Too much bad news coverage on them. I should have stayed in the military… that place turned me into an alcoholic after a couple years and now is helping me choose to CTB. That place will never change because it's corrupt from the bottom to the top.

I'm not surprised. From everything I have heard prisons are hellholes and a lot of the staff like to go on power trips. It sounds like you may have been one of the good ones...

No, my life has no meaning anymore, no meaning at all

I'm a very sorry to hear that.

 

[slumberinflowers]

I feel as though in the past my life once had meaning, I tried my best to surmount all obstacles placed to halt my path but eventually it becomes tiring and extremely frustrating. I've become very weary of what may happen next I just can't bare to deal with any more bs.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I feel as though in the past my life once had meaning, I tried my best to surmount all obstacles placed to halt my path but eventually it becomes tiring and extremely frustrating. I've become very weary of what may happen next I just can't bare to deal with any more bs.

Makes sense I completely understand.

 

[JustABug]

My life doesn't have any meaning to me, personally. However there will be people around me who believe otherwise. I'm just existing as of current and I wish my life had meaning-or else I wouldn't be seeking advice and validation on this website.

 

[brokeandbroken]

My life doesn't have any meaning to me, personally. However there will be people around me who believe otherwise. I'm just existing as of current and I wish my life had meaning-or else I wouldn't be seeking advice and validation on this website.

Why do they believe your life has meaning but you don't?

 

[jbear824]

My life has no meaning. I am a useless waste of life that is just a drain on natural resources and other people's happiness.

 

[StolenLife]

It has no meaning for me but even if it did, some irreparable things were done to me and by me. I no longer want existence, even if it's a good one.

 

[brokeandbroken]

My life has no meaning. I am a useless waste of life that is just a drain on natural resources and other people's happiness.

Mine either. It was taken from me. I am far more of a useless waste of life then you. Just a shit stain on society. Everyone close to me as soon as a stumble pushed me down....

It has no meaning for me but even if it did, some irreparable things were done to me and by me. I no longer want existence, even if it's a good one.

Makes sense. I can't say I am far from that myself. It's tough to deal with the anger... To be honest I am not so much angry at the people who did it as though who *let* them. The US government, my "family", "friends", etc... All basically said fuck that guy, here you can take his life and everything he cares about followed by presumably a lot of laughter.