Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
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I've had a lot of days where I intended on the last day being the next, but I'm really hoping tomorrow I'll finally go through with it. Going to book a hotel just in case. Will update tomorrow as the day goes by. Replies questioning my reasons will be ignored, as I've talked about it on here every now and then and really don't feel like talking about it. To put it in simple terms I've wanted this for over half my life on this Earth. Some will try to get me to change my mind, but even if I don't do it tomorrow it is in the future at some point. The sad truth to it is that not everyone is curable by medication or talking to a therapist. I truly do envy those that aren't capable of comprehending why I want to go through with this.
 
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iwanttodie000

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Feb 15, 2021
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I understand completely. If you choose to go tomorrow, I wish you a pleasant and peaceful journey, one that I will hopefully be taking soon enough as well.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I won't ask you to change your mind.
I just wanna tell you that I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way and wish to leave this world.
However, I feel just like you sometimes and I dunno if I'll be able to keep on living. This might be the year in which I die.

Anyway, gonna be waiting for your update threads.

Just in case, I wish you lots of love and peace.
 
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rs929

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Dec 18, 2020
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I do understand what it feels like to want to die ASAP. I think it's highly possible my life ends by suicide, if I relapse.

But to be honest, when I feel a little bit better, life is bearable and I even have some hope.

What I'm trying to say, it's hard to tell whether someone is trying to take their own life or it's the mental illness behind taking it.

I am very sorry that you're going through this but I hope you pardon me for asking this question: have you exhausted all possibilities?. ECT maybe?.

I will check for your updates tomorrow. I wish you all the best whatever road you follow.
 
Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
Will probably postpone is until next weekend, just because today was too rushed.
 
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Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
I didn't feel like rewriting this whole thing, so I'll just update it. Currently in a hotel.
 
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Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
Mods, delete my account if you don't hear from me in 24 hours.
 
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rs929

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Dec 18, 2020
391
The world needs miserable poets. Remember you still have your art.
 
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Vault of Memories

Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
255
The world needs miserable poets. Remember you still have your art.
Quite frankly my depression deprives me of the simples drive it takes to write stories and such down. Though I do regret straying away from art at a young age. I guess my mom noticed it in me and would have my do painting classes around elementary age. Wish I continued on with painting, learned instruments from a young age and explored more with music, and got into writing earlier.
 
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rs929

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Dec 18, 2020
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Quite frankly my depression deprives me of the simples drive it takes to write stories and such down. Though I do regret straying away from art at a young age. I guess my mom noticed it in me and would have my do painting classes around elementary age. Wish I continued on with painting, learned instruments from a young age and explored more with music, and got into writing earlier.
I could give you some names of depressed, alcoholic and drug addicts famous writers but it would be cliché and embarrassing and you already know them

I don't know if art can relieve your depression but maybe it can give it some meaning. It is something.
 
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Vault of Memories

A temporary being in a temporary world
Mar 24, 2020
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NI could give you some names of depressed, alcoholic and drug addicts famous writers but it would be cliché and embarrassing

and you already know them

I don't know if art can relieve your depression but maybe it can give it some meaning. It is something.
Oh I'm sure I'm aware of most, if not all of the ones you're referring to-most probably huge role models for me. Feels as if it goes for all sorts of people who tend to take the creative vs the logic way of life. Personally, I feel as if I were meant for the art world and wish I never gave my painting up (mom had me doing art
I just believe those of us with bipolar disorder (a lot of these illness have some pros imo, but if not handles properly could ruin your whol life) any other form of mental illness. I believe we're able to feel things at a whole other level than others, which isn't necessarily a good thing-at least not all the time-not in my book.
I feel a I'd more than likely authors are going to base characters around themselves, or others they know. So far, it's really just me in my book-as far as taking about friends. Well I've got huge influences, no doubt about that actually met in real life-psychward, therapy, etc. They've be told the maigonist is based off of me and there's some friends. I've had to reread this multiplbe times on account of being a little fucke up lol and tired. That am I'm quite a concoction (xan (was saving one for the ending) kpins, cocaine, tad bit of shrooms, two morphine 100s, tad bit of shrooms. Been up for a while, thee says in the past week (including Friday) I got zero sleep 3 of the 7 days.
I could give you some names of depressed, alcoholic and drug addicts famous writers but it would be cliché and embarrassing and you already know them

I don't know if art can relieve your depression but maybe it can give it some meaning. It is something.
Inboxed you in case you ever care to talk further. I'm curious to know what you art pieces you're working on.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,045
Well I wish you well on your quest. God only knows I know how you feel.
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
308
I wish you an easy and peaceful passage out this world.
 

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