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Safralavendel
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- May 7, 2024
- 13
I've been planning my cbt for about 4 weeks now and pretty much everything has gone wrong in the last 24 hours lmao.
I took a little too much ketamine yesterday and then called my friend and told them about my plans. They then called the ambulance with the information that I had overdosed on ketamine, which of course wasn't true. Then the paramedics and police arrived at the door. I didn't want to open the door at first, but when they tried to break it down, I gave in and was forced to go to hospital with them, even though I was able to communicate normally again. At the hospital, I was then kept under surveillance by two police officers fpr one hour until I was able to speak to the doctor. The conversation literally only lasted five minutes and then she released me. What a joke! As I was still on drugs, I asked to be taken home as I hadn't yet regained all my senses and lacked any sense of direction, my mobile phone battery was almost empty and I was being driven here against my will. The doctor then said that wasn't her problem and left me alone. I can't with this fucking system...
Now I'm still upset and feel really angry and ashamed because all my neighbours have heard about it.
I want to leave, but I imagined the whole thing would be a bit more peaceful. Today is my birthday and I wouldn't want to do it on any other day.
I'm trying to calm down a bit. Here's my plan:
- I'm using vomex as my AE, as unfortunately I couldn't get a prescription AE
- as a sedative I use mirtalich
- Paracetamol as a painkiller
- SN drink
I would like to thank the forum for all these valuable tips! I would also like to thank florence + the machine for their valuable music. Musically and lyrically I felt seen very much. If I don't write anything in the next 2 weeks, I must have been successful!
I took a little too much ketamine yesterday and then called my friend and told them about my plans. They then called the ambulance with the information that I had overdosed on ketamine, which of course wasn't true. Then the paramedics and police arrived at the door. I didn't want to open the door at first, but when they tried to break it down, I gave in and was forced to go to hospital with them, even though I was able to communicate normally again. At the hospital, I was then kept under surveillance by two police officers fpr one hour until I was able to speak to the doctor. The conversation literally only lasted five minutes and then she released me. What a joke! As I was still on drugs, I asked to be taken home as I hadn't yet regained all my senses and lacked any sense of direction, my mobile phone battery was almost empty and I was being driven here against my will. The doctor then said that wasn't her problem and left me alone. I can't with this fucking system...
Now I'm still upset and feel really angry and ashamed because all my neighbours have heard about it.
I want to leave, but I imagined the whole thing would be a bit more peaceful. Today is my birthday and I wouldn't want to do it on any other day.
I'm trying to calm down a bit. Here's my plan:
- I'm using vomex as my AE, as unfortunately I couldn't get a prescription AE
- as a sedative I use mirtalich
- Paracetamol as a painkiller
- SN drink
I would like to thank the forum for all these valuable tips! I would also like to thank florence + the machine for their valuable music. Musically and lyrically I felt seen very much. If I don't write anything in the next 2 weeks, I must have been successful!