Venting May my birthday be the most peaceful day.

[Blue Rose]

My mother has type 2 diabetes, and takes some medications everyday.
My birthday is on Feb 20, and it is am 9 : 42 for now.

I have stolen her medication again, and took them with cups of plain water.
There is little time. I feel sleepy, my hands are shaking and sweating a little.

Thanks everybody! You made my last hours delightful!
I should write the letters and arrange everything around myself.

May my birthday be the most peaceful day in my whole life.
Thanks, I am happy and comfort for now. I wish there would be No failure again.

 

[Ender]

I will miss you being on the chat. I wish you peace.

 

[Silver]

Wish you didn't have to go like this @Blue Rose

 

[Gonjoolie]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for Blue Rose

 

[Meditation guide]

Rose if you change you mind eat some sugar.

 

[Blue Rose]

1. I feel cold, my hands are sweating and shaking.
2. I feel sick a little, but I think I don't have to take anti-meto.
3. They will work in few hours and I am sleepy anyway.
4. My father is absent, my mother will go out on the afternoon.
5. I am listening to my music. Maybe I will cry soundlessly

+ It is hard to holding and gripping something for now.
Maybe I have taken 15 pills. In the previous case, maybe I took about 20-25.
My father came back, but Nobody will interrupt my sleep until the evening at least.

+ I feel lazy and dizzy, as if I would be in my ideal dream.
I feel my whole body is numb and dim a little. It is getting harder to move delicately.
My eyes started to blink rapidly and more often.

 

[Silver]

Like meditation guide says, take some sugar if you decide to change your mind. It's not too late

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm sorry to hear you're leaving us, pal.

Wish you lots of love and eternal peace.

 

[Silver]

@Blue Rose you are welcome to come back to chat if you want, ppl will be glad to see you

 

[Cakes]

Please please not now!

 

[Blue Rose]

I am awake. Nothing happened yet. I consider stealing extra pills and taking them.

Because of the breakfast I had on the early morning,
My blood sugar will be lowered slowy. But I can feel some signs in my body even now.

When my blood sugar is lowered to below 50mg/dL, I will suffer from some symptoms.
Probably my kidneys and liver will be damaged somewhat.

But I am sure I will fall asleep peacefully at the end.
I wish there would be No failure again, again.

+ I took some pills more, It feels colder and dizzier

 

[Blue Rose]

Report my aliveness. This method was mostly ineffective.
Actually, my body overcame the same toxicity without any hemodialysis before.

My body is too strong to use this method. I had some chocolate and foods.
I felt dizzy, cold, hungry a little, I had mild-moderate discomfort
In my digestive system. But that was all. Nothing happened seriously.

the discomfort in my digestive system and shaking in my body will be ceased soon,
and I will have a early breakfast with seaweed soup. My mind became clearer, and I am fine and usual now.