Materials on the way. Writing my suicide notes.

[Time]

Got my SN a couple of days ago. Meto & domperidone on the way (probably less than a week away). Writing my final goodbyes.

After planning on leaving asap, I'm considering holding off until after the holiday season. To help with the snow shoveling that's inevitably going to be needed (as I'm the youngest/strongest member of the family) & to HOPEFULLY not ruin future holiday seasons for my family.

I've agonized over the decision mainly because of the timing but it's like I'm starting to forget why I'm doing it as soon as possible or...

Guilt/survival instinct creeping in???

 

[Lethe]

What are you going to say in your note?

 

[Time]

What are you going to say in your note?

Basically:

"It's not your fault"
"I'm sorry for being screwed up"
"Because I've always been screwed up suicide has always been an option"
"There's nothing that you could have done to prevent this"
"Would've done this much sooner had I realized how I was going to turn out"

With "I'm sorry" & "I love you" peppered throughout.

I figure these are pretty common elements in suicide notes.