Making it look like an accident.

[seekingoblivion]

For a while I was considering passing a .458 winmag bullet through my skull as a way to tender my resignation but I've been struck with a crisis of conscience regarding the impact this could have on those who are left behind. Does anyone feel like this? My best hope, I imagine, is to make it look like an accident. It would be less stigmatizing to the grievers and painful as it may be, they probably wouldn't have to suffer guilt in the way that those who lose someone by suicide do. Would anyone have any good ideas regarding the making it look like an accident part?

 

[OkTotti]

this has been discussed here before. I think the only way to make it look like an accident is drowning

 

[Xerxes]

Only way I see is if you were cleaning your gun, and it goes off on accident. Of course, the news media will make you and your family look like incompetent fools that shouldn't have had guns in the first place.

 

[TiredHorse]

If you really want to go out by gunshot, be alone in the house and be found with the cleaning supplies spread out around you.

But @Xerxes is right: you'll look like the sort of idiot who oughtn't have had a gun in the first place.

(That's part of why I'm reluctant to use one of my guns to ctb: it'll be another example for the anti-gun crowd to use against the gun owners.)

 

[seekingoblivion]

this has been discussed here before. I think the only way to make it look like an accident is drowning

I suppose I should have done a search before posting. Thanks. And drowning might do the trick but the whole experience of drowning is one that seems rather excruciating. I've read conflicting testimonies from some who survived the event and the majority seem to lean towards a " it was pretty much hell with water instead of fire" narrative. But some say it was tranquil and peaceful after a few seconds of panic so who knows?

 

[OkTotti]

I suppose I should have done a search before posting. Thanks. And drowning might do the trick but the whole experience of drowning is one that seems rather excruciating. I've read conflicting testimonies from some who survived the event and the majority seem to lean towards a " it was pretty much hell with water instead of fire" narrative. But some say it was tranquil and peaceful after a few seconds of panic so who knows?

Well think of this way.. committing suicide is really hard... trying to make it look like an accident is very very hard.. probably not worth the effort if drowning if off the table, which is understandable

 

[seekingoblivion]

Only way I see is if you were cleaning your gun, and it goes off on accident. Of course, the news media will make you and your family look like incompetent fools that shouldn't have had guns in the first place.

Well, I'd hate for my family to be portrayed as idiotic (which of course is nearly certain to happen in such an event). It would surely be a struggle for them to get through all that. Another aspect to consider with the high powered rifle route is the mess it would leave. I'm sure they'd like to have an open casket funeral.

 

[Pegasus]

I can relate cuz I don't wanna hurt my mom. She's the only reason I haven't ctb yet.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Well think of this way.. committing suicide is really hard... trying to make it look like an accident is very very hard.. probably not worth the effort if drowning if off the table, which is understandable

You're right but it's not a very easy thing to get over the fact that the circumstances surrounding my death could cause more suffering than is necessary and for far longer. Though quite honestly I oscillate quite a bit between caring intensely about this aspect of CTB and not caring as much. Right now I care intensely about it

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

honestly in my experience if you have this kind of thoughts you wont ctb anytime soon



it need a bit of selfishness and idgaf attitutde to succesfully ctb

 

[seekingoblivion]

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I can relate cuz I don't wanna hurt my mom. She's the only reason I haven't ctb yet.

Yes I infact am primarily concerned with the effect ctb would have on my parents. The guilt they might feel is almost unimaginable to me.

 

[Mistress Death]

I can relate cuz I don't wanna hurt my mom. She's the only reason I haven't ctb yet.

What method do you want to use?

 

[Pegasus]

What method do you want to use?

SN

 

[seekingoblivion]

honestly in my experience if you have this kind of thoughts you wont ctb anytime soon



it need a bit of selfishness and idgaf attitutde to succesfully ctb

Indeed I have no plan for the near future of ctb. I've considered and contemplated suicide for years but I had not gotten to the point of properly formulating a plan and being detached enough from life to desire the promptest exit. Yet I've been inching there. And I have thus began exploring the possible ways through which I may take my leave should I feel ready to do so. I know it takes not giving a fuck, which is a mindset I keep going in and out of. Right now fuck is being given.

 

[TiredHorse]

Indeed I have no plan for the near future of ctb. I've considered and contemplated suicide for years but I had not gotten to the point of properly formulating a plan and being detached enough from life to desire the promptest exit. Yet I've been inching there. And I have thus began exploring the possible ways through which I may take my leave should I feel ready to do so. I know it takes not giving a fuck, which is a mindset I keep going in and out of. Right now fuck is being given.

That works for me. Mapping out a plan, getting the ducks in a row, can help ease the mental pressure, too.

I know this site is pro-choice, but I just want to say that I hope you can find a way to keep living. Finding adequate joy and comfort to continue living seems to me the better option.

 

[seekingoblivion]

That works for me. Mapping out a plan, getting the ducks in a row, can help ease the mental pressure, too.

I know this site is pro-choice, but I just want to say that I hope you can find a way to keep living. Finding adequate joy and comfort to continue living seems to me the better option.

Thank you. I wish the same for you. To be quite honest I desire that for everyone on this site and elsewhere. It is indeed the better option and it hurts to know that for so many in the world the option just seems out of reach.

And you're right it does have the effect of relieving some mental pressure....once your ducks are in a row. For now though I'm still scrambling to get all the scattered ducks together and there's a bit of mental pressure involved in the process.

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

Indeed I have no plan for the near future of ctb. I've considered and contemplated suicide for years but I had not gotten to the point of properly formulating a plan and being detached enough from life to desire the promptest exit. Yet I've been inching there. And I have thus began exploring the possible ways through which I may take my leave should I feel ready to do so. I know it takes not giving a fuck, which is a mindset I keep going in and out of. Right now fuck is being given.

if i were you id concentrate on living then

once you have thís thought "who cares in the end i can always ctb" in your back things get more easily to shit

 

[NotWorthLiving]

I feel like it would be extremely hard to make it look like an accident

 

[dumbfarang]

i have a gun, and my n should be arriving in 2 weeks. im thinking of ctbing with the n, and leaving a gun next to my body. i think itd be a funny troll

 

[seekingoblivion]

if i were you id concentrate on living then

once you have thís thought "who cares in the end i can always ctb" in your back things get more easily to shit

I've been trying that but it's really difficult to ignore the fact this crap seems to be of absolute pointlessness and at best it's only mildly amusing and at worst it's torture of the cruelest kind.

 

[seekingoblivion]

i have a gun, and my n should be arriving in 2 weeks. im thinking of ctbing with the n, and leaving a gun next to my body. i think itd be a funny troll

That would definitely cause some head scratching.

 

[bigj75]

That would definitely cause some head scratching.

Lmfao. That's going to be obvious.