Venting MAID In Canada/Fuck life.

[Livingvsdying25]

I am waiting to have a nurse practitioner call me back regarding this. Legally my doctor has the right to refuse but she is alsp supposed to refer me to someone.

So fuck her ima just find someone else. Im extremely curious of the process and whats needed.

Today im finding quite a bit of empowerment in admitting that I am fucking tired, fed up and just over things. Im so fucking sick of living. Im sick of having to be excited or happy or optimistic about life.


I can't even begin to reach for so many things in life bc others are not stable. Im sick of living with so many hindering health issues. It's fucking shit.


But honestly whats the point of feeling suicidal if it's just some stupid fucking fantasy or struggle. I'm sick of that too. Maybe one day I'll reach depths of like being able to hang myself and maybe figure out a drug combo but why the fuck do I have to suffer while dying too.

I have enough conditions that severely impact me. Im fucking over it. I should be fucking eligible.


My Dad doesn't want to talk about it bc "He's interested in the living and I'm just continuing to try to die" or some stupid shit like that. Ugh fuck him honestly.

I have some hopes of actually being able to access MAID it makes me feel very excited to think about. In the meantime I am doing everything and anything to keep myself alive & improve my life. Such contradictory states of mind.


But yee today at least I'm fucking sick of living. Can't even enjoy myself or my day bc of survival mode that has not let up despite all the calls and things being done so I'm just fucking over it today.

 

[Blue_mist]

So sorry for what you are going through, yes life is fuckin hard especially in Canada, social assistance here provides barley
enough for food and that's it, let alone rent and other expenses. I wish you all the best with your MAID, my psychiatrist told me last time not to ask for MAID before March next year since it's not available yet for individuals with only mental illness as a sole cause.

 

[Aisley]

I hope this works out for you. They've really broadened their criteria, and everyone deserves a peaceful way out. Maybe your dad will come around when a date's been made.

 

[FuneralCry]

I envy those who have access to MAID and can take control over their inevitable fate in such a peaceful way, assisted suicide isn't even legalised in my country. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans, I understand why you'd feel so relieved at the thought of leaving this world in such a way.

 

[lachrymost]

Good luck! I hope they have mercy on you. I will be applying when they expand the criteria, but there are lots of reasons I don't have high hopes.

Not to mention that the healthcare system is fucked and physicians willing and able to evaluate people whose only pertinent conditions are mental are not exactly going to be in good supply. I'm on a years-long waiting list just to see a stupid psychiatrist so I can get referred to a case manager. Everything is super bleak.

I would be really interested in hearing how the process goes for you. It sounds really intense and taxing. Did your doctor already say they object and that they would refer you elsewhere? Or did you decide to bypass asking your doctor altogether?

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Good luck! I hope they have mercy on you. I will be applying when they expand the criteria, but there are lots of reasons I don't have high hopes.

Not to mention that the healthcare system is fucked and physicians willing and able to evaluate people whose only pertinent conditions are mental are not exactly going to be in good supply. I'm on a years-long waiting list just to see a stupid psychiatrist so I can get referred to a case manager. Everything is super bleak.

I would be really interested in hearing how the process goes for you. It sounds really intense and taxing. Did your doctor already say they object and that they would refer you elsewhere? Or did you decide to bypass asking your doctor altogether?

I shall possibly post about the process and such if I feel safe to do so.

My doctor just tried to deny the physical health issue diagnosis as a way to like almost suicide prevention in a very fucked up way? So I didn't even have time to think about the fact that she should be referring me to someone else but I don't trust her being involved with anything so I'm just completing bypassing her.


3/7 of my health conditions can be considered physical health issues so I'm hoping all my conditions/issues and the level of severity in which they impact me will be enough.


and sorry to hear its such a rough struggle for you to get support its fucking wild how long the waiting list are.

Wishing you and everyone in this thread a thnx for the support and hoping y'all are able to find some ease within the day

 

[Ashu]

So sorry for what you are going through, yes life is fuckin hard especially in Canada, social assistance here provides barley
enough for food and that's it, let alone rent and other expenses. I wish you all the best with your MAID, my psychiatrist told me last time not to ask for MAID before March next year since it's not available yet for individuals with only mental illness as a sole cause.

Canada is fuckin paradise. Just sayin. Peace to my brothers and sisters back home, where I lived and almost died in the scene you describe, in Toronto, back when anything like MAID was an impossible dream.

 

[Hotsackage]

hang in there its getting more liberal every day

 

[Scythe]

I wouldn't get my hopes up for MAID, they probably need to pass you through this shitty procedure that you have no way of passing even after March next year; When they are supposed to be accepting people with only mental illnesses as their reason to die. Especially if you're young.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your doctor being against MAID despite that you have a legal right to it and that she didn't even try to refer you to someone who will honor maid. I hope that you find peace in the future whether it is carrying on or leaving this shitty sentient existence.

 

[enough of this]

I was disappointed I couldn't go there from the states to take advantage of it. There are several states which participate in assisted suicide, but mine isn't one of them. And, you have to be a resident of the states that DO offer the service in order to qualify. Except for Oregon. BUT, you have to show a medical report confirming you have a medical issue that's going to take you out within 6 months, and I don't have that.

 

[MrDarkness]

I live in Canada also, I still want to live I'm saving my ctb when I got nothing else, hopefully if your lucky you can achieve maid, otherwise if you want death that badly you gotta take it into your own hands, I wish for you to find peace in life or death