Magic Mushrooms are my last hope but taking too long to grow

[BeautifulMosaics]

I know how unhealthy it is to heap all your hope on one thing but it feels like I have no choice (from where I'm at mentally now and just the way my brain is wired). Apparently these shrooms are better than anti-depressants and I was so excited to try them but even the hope from their promise has worn off. I'm on an SSRI but it's not working anymore which starts the cycle of not taking them > feeling worse > not taking them and on and on.

The biggest thing is time. I'm turning 26 in about a month and I'm not at all where I want to be in life. I've basically been stunted since 16 and still live at home as a depressed, bed-bound person. I've tried jobs/uni but the problems always start again. I've been through the NHS "help" system so many times and it's jackshit. If you don't fit into narrow definitions you'll get nothing. I've always thought stimulants would help me but if you're not ADHD enough you can't get them.

I don't want to reach 26 like this. It's terrifying. My care is gone now. All my dreams - whatever... It was what it was (my life).

The worst part is when you don't want to die but don't see a way out.

I probably will stick around for the shrooms at the risk of being a proper adult and truly pathetic. Does anyone know any forums like this but focused on recovery?

 

[VoidAlchemy]

I'm not a psychiatrist but maybe an SNRI would work better for you than an SSRI. SNRI's are more stimulating since they inhibit the reuptake of both serotonin and norepinephrine instead of just serotonin in the case of SSRI's. Also it's not recommended that you magic mushrooms while on an SSRI/SNRI/MAOI or any substance that also works on the serotonergic system for that matter as you risk developing serotonin syndrome (also called serotonin toxicity). You'll probably have to stop taking the medication for a few days or even a couple weeks depending on the medications half-life before you can trip or microdose safely. Consider tapering off too, as the withdrawals from stopping cold turkey can be very intense depending on what medication you're taking and how long you've been taking it.

Do you plan on tripping or microdosing?

 

[GreenTree]

Where can you get the magic mushrooms from. Can you just pick some from the woods. I really want to try some and have heard only good stories towards mental health from magic

 

[VoidAlchemy]

Where can you get the magic mushrooms from. Can you just pick some from the woods. I really want to try some and have heard only good stories towards mental health from magic

Be cautious, they're very powerful. If you've only heard good stories then you really need to do more research. Tons of people have had negative experiences with them, especially those with mental health issues. After their first trip one of my friends entered a 4 month psychosis, and there are plenty of stories out there of people who've experienced way worse and never fully came back. I'm not trying to scare you off or anything, just trying to give you a realistic perspective as they can hurt and heal.

As for getting them, there are some countries where magic truffles are legal. The main "tripping ingredient" in both magic mushrooms and magic truffles is psilocybin, so the experience is practically identical. If you don't care about breaking the law and have come to terms with the potential consequences, you can grow them or visit a darknet market and buy them. I believe if you look through the sticky threads in the discussion category there should be a guide on how to access darknet markets if you're unfamiliar.

I cannot emphasize this enough though, do your research. Do some googling, there are a lot of good beginner resources out there, find as many as you can and really go through them and read them. Read a bunch of trip reports and look at both the good and bad ones, shroomery and reddit are some good sources for that. Also psyched substance has some good youtube videos for beginners, consider watching some of his videos as well

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

I'm not a psychiatrist but maybe an SNRI would work better for you than an SSRI. SNRI's are more stimulating since they inhibit the reuptake of both serotonin and norepinephrine instead of just serotonin in the case of SSRI's. Also it's not recommended that you magic mushrooms while on an SSRI/SNRI/MAOI or any substance that also works on the serotonergic system for that matter as you risk developing serotonin syndrome (also called serotonin toxicity). You'll probably have to stop taking the medication for a few days or even a couple weeks depending on the medications half-life before you can trip or microdose safely. Consider tapering off too, as the withdrawals from stopping cold turkey can be very intense depending on what medication you're taking and how long you've been taking it.

Do you plan on tripping or microdosing?

Thank you for your response. I've tried one SNRI. And I've done my research, I'll defo not take the shrooms while still on anti-depressants - we're not trying to die that way! lol.

I plan to trip hopefully for some sort of revelation. Then I plan to microdose. I have high hopes. It's sort of my last resort.

 

[Huntfish34]

I agree with all of the above, please do your research and make sure you are in a good headspace / environment if possible.
Shroomery is a great place to check out for sure. A lot of knowledgeable people and information to check out. I actually posted a trip report there around 20 years ago, and I won't bullshit ya...... It was an Absolute and Total Fckn Nightmare; I was in a toxic mindset/underestimated them ( 1.5g cubes) In return I learned many valuable lessons which I try to adhere with to this day.

I'd suggest to tread Lightly and start with some micro dosing sessions... (maybe .25 - .5g to start with) I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen, be safe and enjoy.

 

[wait.what]

Does anyone know any forums like this but focused on recovery?

Sure do. Copy the URL below and paste it into your browser. I don't like linking directly from here--site owners look at where their traffic comes from, and we've got enough exposure at the moment, thank you. I'm sure Suicide Forum knows we're out here, but still. SF is 110% pro-life, stricter even than Reddit, so do read their rules about what can be posted. Despite the restrictions, I'd still go to SF before I'd go to any of the relevant subreddits. Reddit is a lot of things, but a therapeutic community is not one of them, lol.

https://www.suicideforum.com/

 

[Blue_mist]

I've tried shrooms once, it was amazing and so,,I wouldn't call it calming rather than distracting from racing thoughts and anxiety. I ordered it from online dispensary in Canada. I think growing them from spores is the best and most affordable choice. Make sure you give the spores at least 12 hrs of dark area a day and sanitize all tools, your hands, the air with disinfectant aerosol to avoid contamination from other spores of Bacteria and Fungi suspended in the air, as a person with a degree in Microbiology it's not an easy task to get pure uncontaminated species without having proper confined sterilized laboratory settings.

 

[NumbItAll]

I plan to trip hopefully for some sort of revelation. Then I plan to microdose.

I would definitely consider reversing the order of this. You can still have lots of benefits at a lower dose (even 0.1g) without the potential grief of tripping. There is no harm in easing your way in, but that's all up to you and your risk tolerance of course. Good luck though, I think it's a good thing to try.

 

[dissident]

Highly recommend searching James Fadiman and his Microdosing Routine. He has a video on the SAND (Science & Non-Duality) YouTube channel. I wish you the very best