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Worthless_nobody
Enlightened
- Feb 14, 2019
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Bad luck is essentially the reason main reason why Ill be commiting suicide. Because of bad luck I experienced all the horrible things, abuse, trauma, bad mental/physical health etc. Luck ultimately controls our fate and our destiny in life..we can only control our lives so much. Luck dictates our, genes, our health, who our family is, who we meet, what opportunities we have. It is so disheartening to try so hard in life...to do everything right and the same as others only to be beaten down, defeated and driven to suicide by life while others continually get blessed and blessed all because of luck. How is this fair? Suicidal people are told to "get help, hang in there, it gets better" and all sorts of unhelpful, vapid, empty platitudes that solve nothing. We are forbidden by society to kill ourselves but expected to exist in a terrible situation. When we go through trauma that beats us down and drives us to suicide we are called a "survivor or a warrior" and that the bad things help to make us stronger...no its driven me to kill myself. Im sick and tired of being a "survivor", and having life test me...im sick and tired of hanging on only for life to beat me back down again the minute I begin to become happy again or life starts becoming marginally better. It never fails...its like life is peeking around the corner watching me about to be happy then it all comes crashing down again worse than before. Trauma piled on top of trauma. A person can only take so much bad luck before they snap and just give up.
I didn't ask for this life..I didn't ask to be here. I tried really hard in life...yet luck determined my fate...and because of luck I choose to die. I just cant believe this...this is life..this is it.....Im just saddened and sick I have to ctb but its the only way. Just venting this out because no one in life listens.
I didn't ask for this life..I didn't ask to be here. I tried really hard in life...yet luck determined my fate...and because of luck I choose to die. I just cant believe this...this is life..this is it.....Im just saddened and sick I have to ctb but its the only way. Just venting this out because no one in life listens.
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