So the next opportunity I am going to get to ctb will be 2 days before a loved ones birthday. I feel bad doing it 2 days before, thinking that for rest of their lives their birthday will potentially be a reminder of me leaving but then I think well when would be a good time? 1 week after, 2 weeks? A month. I can't wait months and in a couple months time we start coming up to a run of birthdays of loved ones. I don't think there is an ideal time. Certainly not one I'm willing to wait for so I'm probably just going to go for it and hope over time it gets easier and doesn't serve as a reminder. I'm also feeling a little bad at the thought they might think why couldn't I or wouldn't I just wait till after. Didn't I want to have that day with them which of course isn't the case. I'd love to but I need to do this and this might be the best chance I'll have.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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