Neurodamaged2
Member
- Oct 28, 2019
- 69
Hi there,
Due to being suicidal, this year I've attempted suicide multiple times and been put through some brain damaging "treatments" including electroshock 'therapy' and a cocktail of drugs including anti-psychotics. It's taken its toll on my brain. I have lost the drive to do anything, let alone commit suicide. Further, I've got some cognitive difficulties now, especially with focus and understanding of complex things. I don't think I'd be able to pull off the suicide methods commonly talked about due to a lack of will or motivation, but I just can't continue living like this. The damage from the past year alone (ECT, suicide attempts, drugs) is too much to take, let alone what led me here in the first place. I can't be a burden on my family anymore. I don't know what to do as the drive to commit suicide is gone but so is the drive to do everything else. I wish I still had the will in me to hang myself but it's just gone.
I don't know what to do...
Due to being suicidal, this year I've attempted suicide multiple times and been put through some brain damaging "treatments" including electroshock 'therapy' and a cocktail of drugs including anti-psychotics. It's taken its toll on my brain. I have lost the drive to do anything, let alone commit suicide. Further, I've got some cognitive difficulties now, especially with focus and understanding of complex things. I don't think I'd be able to pull off the suicide methods commonly talked about due to a lack of will or motivation, but I just can't continue living like this. The damage from the past year alone (ECT, suicide attempts, drugs) is too much to take, let alone what led me here in the first place. I can't be a burden on my family anymore. I don't know what to do as the drive to commit suicide is gone but so is the drive to do everything else. I wish I still had the will in me to hang myself but it's just gone.
I don't know what to do...
