Losing interest in the mundane commitments

[jordan6243]

In the past few weeks I have been experiencing a completely decline in my interest to do pretty much anything but specifically the mundane commitments I've made. I'm a college student so I have classes, homework assignments, studying; the whole 9 yards. I can't bear going to most of my classes on a regular basis, I find homework assignments piling up and poor effort if they even get completed. Making meals or going to get them is also a chore. It's hard finding things that I can actually look forward to.

I wanted to see where you guys stand on this. What have your experiences been with losing interest in living your life?

 

[DivineSpark]

I think it is condition called anhedonia. Nothing brings any pleasure anymore in life.

 

[2messdup]

In the past few weeks I have been experiencing a completely decline in my interest to do pretty much anything but specifically the mundane commitments I've made. I'm a college student so I have classes, homework assignments, studying; the whole 9 yards. I can't bear going to most of my classes on a regular basis, I find homework assignments piling up and poor effort if they even get completed. Making meals or going to get them is also a chore. It's hard finding things that I can actually look forward to.

I wanted to see where you guys stand on this. What have your experiences been with losing interest in living your life?

Going thru this right now (still in bed at nearly 3pm cos can't face getting dressed). Course assignment due in 2 days but it's short questions so I'm gonna cheat (otherwise I have to pay them). Not eaten anything because can't be bothered and no appetite. I've neat rows of microwavable ready meals in the freezer for if I do feel briefly hungry. And eat them with one spoon so virtually no washing up. It's making the prospect of ctb easier because I don't have the energy to worry at all, it's become pragmatic.But it's made preparing for ctb much slower and more difficult. Suppose what I'm doing is only the essentials and finding the quickest lowest effort way to get them done.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've personally never had any interest in existing, to me existing is just futile unnecessary suffering and I wish that more than anything this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was never imposed. I'd personally never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I find it the most torturous, futile burden to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and I was just never meant for any of this.