kindawannacrylol
Student
- Jan 13, 2021
- 142
So I am 20 and a virgin which really isn't a problem, a lot of my friends are virgins and don't really care it isn't something I'm that bothered about. I also don't really have a 'plan' to ctb. I find when I plan it, I overanalyse and mess up attempts or get too anxious last minute. I'm at a terrible place mentally, and my most successful attempts have been the ones where I didn't plan anything and it was impulsive, SI is almost non existent when I'm feeling so bad I'd do anything to end it. Anyway I'm in place where things are bad and I feel as if it'll reach that really bad place in a few days. Long story short I'm going to kill myself in the next few days. Kinda wanna have sex before I die? If you have had sex before, is it something I should be prioritising on my 'things to do before I die' list or is it trivial and something to miss out on? I always imagined losing my virginity to the love of my life, but I have exes and past flings who I kinda trust and would honestly love it if I asked them, so realistically I could lose it pretty easily.