Looking for advice

[Jengator]

My health is debilitating. Liver doesn't tolerate medications. Mold illness and heavy metal poisoning. I'm dying slowly and suffering so much. I don't want to die but I'm suffering bad. I can hardly eat or walk. I can't go to a hospital because they just give you drugs which in my case will go to my brain and torture me along with the mold in my brain. It's horrifying.
I ordered N from A. He recently said he needed an MTCN but my MoneyGram has a reference number on the receipt and not an MTCN. So I'm waiting and not trying to bug him too much. MoneyGram states the money has been picked up.
I can't shoot myself or hang myself. I'm not strong enough. I have SN on hand just in case things get too unbearable. However I don't even think I can keep down or process the pre-meds for it.
Just looking for advice on what to do if I'm about to be taken to a psych institution or I can't walk or use the restroom any more and I'm being tortured or choking on my own food. Thank you. Much compassion to anyone suffering. My sincerely hope is that anyone suffering can find a way to live on without too much suffering. I wish I could do that.

 

[JimFord99]

Sorry to say, but you may have problems taking N as well with your conditions. Are you in care or do you live by yourself?

 

[Jengator]

I live at my elderly parents house. I tolerate supplements find. And drugs don't come back up, I just react bad to them. I was reading that N doesn't need the pre-meds

 

[JimFord99]

OK. I don't know about N, this depends on your body. Can you consume food without problems?

 

[Jengator]

OK. I don't know about N, this depends on your body. Can you consume food without problems?

Yes I am able to consume food without it coming back up. Coming back up isn't the problem for anything actually. I have sensitivities to certain foods and medications that end up going through my leaky gut and back into my brain. But the good stays down. Basically untreatable Lyme disease.

 

[JimFord99]

Sorry, buddy. Awful condition.

 

[Jengator]

Thanks. I wish I could either recover or naturally go peacefully

 

[JimFord99]

Understandable, really, I mean it. Any chance of recovery?

 

[Jengator]

Slim. I can am going to an alternative medicine doctor for a process that includes and get IV peptides, some nutrients, then ozone, possibly stem cells and chelation. I am trying the first step in that process.

If something goes wrong, or my body doesn't take to it, it goes to my brain and is like a hammer banging my brain constantly with no relief until an organ fails, which could take a long time.

I want to be prepared for that.

 

[JimFord99]

Slim. I can am going to an alternative medicine doctor for a process that includes and get IV peptides, some nutrients, then ozone, possibly stem cells and chelation. I am trying the first step in that process.

If something goes wrong, or my body doesn't take to it, it goes to my brain and is like a hammer banging my brain constantly with no relief until an organ fails, which could take a long time.

I want to be prepared for that.

 

[Stan]

Can I ask how you got such a terrible affliction?

 

[Jengator]

Yes. I stopped telling this story because only the people that this has happened to believes it. Everyone else thinks I'm crazy.
I got very sick after taking an antibiotic called Cipro. It is in a class of drugs called Fluoroquinolones that also includes Avelox and Levaquin. It's called Fluoroquinolone Toxicity. I suspect people in this group have at some point in their lives taken one of these drugs and never made the connection to their physical and emotional ailments. We aren't crazy. We've been poisoned. There are hundreds of thousands of people that get maimed by these drugs. Many more get injured and develop depression or any number of conditions from them and never make the connection. Soldiers are given these drugs like candy. PTSD is mostly from these drugs band not combat. I know I sound like a I conspiracy theorist here but it's all true and the government or big pharma won't admit it until it happens to someone more powerful.
I wanted to say also that the compassion shown by members in this group has really touched my heart. I haven't seen much compassion from well people going about their lives or even from my friends and family.
Is there a way to pull this off without anyone knowing it was a suicide?
Is there a way to pull this off without anyone knowing it was a suicide?

 

[Stan]

Is there a way to pull this off without anyone knowing it was a suicide?

Something I looked into. Pretty risky and unless your condition was diagnosed as terminal and you were coming to end of life, would arouse suspicion

 

[morningdew]

Yes. I stopped telling this story because only the people that this has happened to believes it. Everyone else thinks I'm crazy.
I got very sick after taking an antibiotic called Cipro. It is in a class of drugs called Fluoroquinolones that also includes Avelox and Levaquin. It's called Fluoroquinolone Toxicity. I suspect people in this group have at some point in their lives taken one of these drugs and never made the connection to their physical and emotional ailments. We aren't crazy. We've been poisoned. There are hundreds of thousands of people that get maimed by these drugs. Many more get injured and develop depression or any number of conditions from them and never make the connection. Soldiers are given these drugs like candy. PTSD is mostly from these drugs band not combat. I know I sound like a I conspiracy theorist here but it's all true and the government or big pharma won't admit it until it happens to someone more powerful.
I wanted to say also that the compassion shown by members in this group has really touched my heart. I haven't seen much compassion from well people going about their lives or even from my friends and family.
Is there a way to pull this off without anyone knowing it was a suicide?
Is there a way to pull this off without anyone knowing it was a suicide?

You're not crazy. Cipro is no joke. It's been 4 years post cipro for me. I also learned its hard to find compassion. The effects of cipro put you in a state where just a little compassion, kindness and understanding would go a long way. Doctors don't want to admit they are doing harm.

 

[Terminally ill]

Hello, I just read this thread and I trully symphatize with your pain. I see that you have SN and N. Why do u fear taking SN? AE must be taken for both SN and N.