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WearyWanderer
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- Nov 3, 2019
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I may have the ability to be eligible for VSED and hospice after beginning the first couple of days on my own.
However, I definitely have some concerns and this method was never my first choice.![Disappointed face :disappointed: 😞](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f61e.png)
![Broken heart :broken_heart: 💔](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f494.png)
It's looking like my possible only choice though at this point.
Does anyone on the forum happen to know of VSED cases like Christina Symanski, where the patient was fairly young and suffering from spinal issues/pain but was able to endure the process.
I'm worried because I have some odd reactions to morphine which is the painkiller they use. It causes me intense head pressure like my brain and ears are going to explode and pop, the sensation that my legs are 100 pounds and I can't physically lift them, hypnagogic jerks possibly, an extremely uncomfortable dampening sensation in my brain (this is probably partly due to my ventriculomegaly so when the morphine went into my spinal fluid it also went into my brain).
I'm also hypoglycemic and get weak and faint after even just a few hours of not eating and drinking enough. According to one volunteer, this can be a good thing because she thought I would pass out and not be fully conscious of everything but I'm honestly not so sure.
My incredibly severe nervous system sensitivity has never fucking been an advantage in life only a terrible curse in all other circumstances.
I've seen accounts here of people who attempted VSED but without oversight and who vomited or had seizures. Both those symptoms sound unbearable to me in my already weakened, bedbound state but with my luck I would likely develop them. Does anyone know if there's natural ways to prevent this from happening or if maybe the reason Christina Symanski ended up drinking part of the time during her process was because that was the only way she could make it bearable?
Yes, two months is an excruciating amount of time but if it was the difference between pushing through the discomfort and symptoms and going a bit longer vs feeling forced to stop early due to say agitation and deliriium from no water then I can understand her reasoning and there must have been a reason why she ended up doing it that way I would think.
Any insights or advice on situations similar to this are greatly encouraged and appreciated.
Based on my descriptions and the fact that I have connective tissue disorder, med sensitivities, naturally low blood pressure, genetically weak and defective nervous system, current Candida overgrowth, long term antibiotic neurotoxicity and brain damage, possible long COVID side effects masked by numbness, extreme proneness to UTI, do you think I could still be a VSED candidate?
Supposedly the answer is yes based on the person I spoke with but I have a bad feeling about it and would hate to go through all the effort of setting it up and possibly getting worse then having to bail halfway through or something.
It's so fucking unfair because even with this legal method I feel like you honestly have to have some level of strength and function in order to be able to complete it and it's not a viable option for extreme cases.![Loudly crying face :sob: ðŸ˜](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f62d.png)
However, I definitely have some concerns and this method was never my first choice.
![Disappointed face :disappointed: 😞](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f61e.png)
![Broken heart :broken_heart: 💔](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f494.png)
It's looking like my possible only choice though at this point.
Does anyone on the forum happen to know of VSED cases like Christina Symanski, where the patient was fairly young and suffering from spinal issues/pain but was able to endure the process.
I'm worried because I have some odd reactions to morphine which is the painkiller they use. It causes me intense head pressure like my brain and ears are going to explode and pop, the sensation that my legs are 100 pounds and I can't physically lift them, hypnagogic jerks possibly, an extremely uncomfortable dampening sensation in my brain (this is probably partly due to my ventriculomegaly so when the morphine went into my spinal fluid it also went into my brain).
I'm also hypoglycemic and get weak and faint after even just a few hours of not eating and drinking enough. According to one volunteer, this can be a good thing because she thought I would pass out and not be fully conscious of everything but I'm honestly not so sure.
My incredibly severe nervous system sensitivity has never fucking been an advantage in life only a terrible curse in all other circumstances.
I've seen accounts here of people who attempted VSED but without oversight and who vomited or had seizures. Both those symptoms sound unbearable to me in my already weakened, bedbound state but with my luck I would likely develop them. Does anyone know if there's natural ways to prevent this from happening or if maybe the reason Christina Symanski ended up drinking part of the time during her process was because that was the only way she could make it bearable?
Yes, two months is an excruciating amount of time but if it was the difference between pushing through the discomfort and symptoms and going a bit longer vs feeling forced to stop early due to say agitation and deliriium from no water then I can understand her reasoning and there must have been a reason why she ended up doing it that way I would think.
Any insights or advice on situations similar to this are greatly encouraged and appreciated.
Based on my descriptions and the fact that I have connective tissue disorder, med sensitivities, naturally low blood pressure, genetically weak and defective nervous system, current Candida overgrowth, long term antibiotic neurotoxicity and brain damage, possible long COVID side effects masked by numbness, extreme proneness to UTI, do you think I could still be a VSED candidate?
Supposedly the answer is yes based on the person I spoke with but I have a bad feeling about it and would hate to go through all the effort of setting it up and possibly getting worse then having to bail halfway through or something.
It's so fucking unfair because even with this legal method I feel like you honestly have to have some level of strength and function in order to be able to complete it and it's not a viable option for extreme cases.
![Loudly crying face :sob: ðŸ˜](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f62d.png)
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