looking back at your past self compared to today would you tell your past self to CTB?

[asian.neet]

I wouldve, although i wouldve directed my past self to this website first so i knew what i was doing. at the time i still had my 2nd amendment rights so yeah. rn its gone

 

[LetMeBeSad]

Absolutely. I first tried when I was 8. I didn't know about a breast bone and ribs back then when I tried to stab myself. I'd tell him where to find the guns. Little me could have pulled that off.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes. The more I think about ctb for me the more rational it seems. When i was a younger chimp I didn't think about anything I just reacted and carried out my programming . I 'm supposed to watch TV , youtube etc Why? because that's what I learned from a young age to do .

But now i think youtube tv social media are wastes of time . While ctb for me would solve all my problems instantly and forever. I don't see any objective reason to continue to live.

 

[Sleeper System]

That's a hard question to answer.

 

[stxrdustprincex]

god, yes. i'm 19 and i wish i had died when i first tried to ctb at 14. the past few years have been horrible and if i could have saved myself from experiencing them i absolutely would have.

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

Very much so. I would go back probably 3 years and convince myself to do it so I wouldn't have to experience the darkest years of my life so far. Hopefully it's one of the last years too

 

[zeevo]

100% would, before I had wasted this much of my family's resources and time. I'd also make sure I got it right the first time because one anyone knows its all downhill.

 

[Hollowman]

Definitely, younger me would be extremely disappointed with how things turned out.

 

[tinyghost]

yes. no reason to have to go through all that

 

[Abyssal]

I'd tell my past self to ctb not because it got worse but because past me was in hell. I don't deserve what I endured and I'd do everything in my power to take it back, even at the cost of my own life.

 

[noneed]

I would've told myself to buy Bitcoin. But I can't do either so it is what it is.

 

[asian.neet]

god, yes. i'm 19 and i wish i had died when i first tried to ctb at 14. the past few years have been horrible and if i could have saved myself from experiencing them i absolutely would have.

i tried to ctb a year ago in august. i wish i went forward with my plan. it isnt worth it.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I wanted to ctb in the past but sadly it isn't like one could just choose to permanently switch off their existence, it's cruel and horrible how we cannot just choose to easily die in peace.
I've always preferred the sound of eternally ceasing to exist as there's nothing desirable about existence and all the suffering it causes, only wishing for death feels rational to me, to escape from all future harms in this tiresome and futile existence that was unnecessary in the first place. If one doesn't exist then they cannot suffer in any way, and existence causes nothing but suffering.

 

[ropearoundatree]

Yes, about the time of age(s) 23-24, specifically. . !

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd tell myself that I would end up partly achieving the main thing I wanted to do in life (a creative job.) But- it would be so hard to keep hold of, the effort I would need to put in would be huge and the constant stress of losing it would taint the whole thing. I wouldn't have listened though. I was just as stubborn then as I am now. It would be better if I could just go back and shoot my younger self in the head!

But no- I could tell myself that life won't be worth it but- the reasons I didn't feel able to CTB then are the same as now. (I didn't and don't want it to upset family members.) So, we're kind of stuck with life for now. I think I'd definitely tell my younger self about narcissism and limerance. Those two discoveries helped me out later on. Oh- and I'd give myself the winning lottery numbers for the next big draw.

 

[Life_and_Death]

yes.. id go back before i was even suicidal and tell myself to do it.
then so much wouldnt have happened..so much wouldnt matter...

 

[dizzdesi]

Yes I would, I would tell my child self to ctb before I end up hurting anyone

 

[todeswunsch]

For sure. I'd beg to my younger self to end it as early as possible.
Hope of better days was the only reason I didn't CTB before, I shouldn't believe in these silly hopes.

 

[fallintotheshadows]

More than likely which this may be an unpopular opinion, but no I don't think I would. The reason being is that there is a time where I was ignorant to life's struggles since I am always someone who has plans and goals as well as the determination to do said things. It was only recently where I saw that I saw that it was terrible living in a world like this. But just because I feel that life is suffering and that everyone has depression today does not mean that i did when I was younger which correlates to being able to just keep going thinking everything was fine. (And I mean that not the whole "everything is fine" but it isnt.)

Ignorance is bliss

 

[Orange Cat]

I wouldn't go back and tell my past self to ctb. I have had both good and bad times in my life. if I had ctb when I was younger, I would have missed out on the good things.

 

[アホペンギン]

I'd be screaming at that disgusting coward to climb over the fucking railing already and jump.

 

[loopdaloop]

yes I would tell my 18 year old self to book tickets and fly somewhere with the money I had and attempt ctb non-impulsively, to succeed the 1st attempt and never have to step inside a psychward. the whole entire aftermath of the first failed attempt and years later up until now was just so unnecessary and I wish it could be erased.

 

[hellispink]

Yes. The older i get the harder it is. I would have tell her to end this as soon as i could maybe as a kid. I wish i did fuck

 

[Morte]

I would tell my old self to buy bitcoin

 

[skaro]

I would've told myself to buy Bitcoin. But I can't do either so it is what it is.

THISSSSSSSSSSS
but instead I was obsessed with watching plane crash videos on my mom's work laptop

 

[wilbursoot6969]

100%

 

[LeperGnome]

Yeah. I wouldn't have missed a thing that was worth all the crap.

 

[Oathkeeper]

Would tell myself to make better decisions, and that if they were incapable of doing so, to just get it over with.

 

[asian.neet]

Yeah. I wouldn't have missed a thing that was worth all the crap.

I would tell last year self about what happened this year. And tell myself to kms.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yes. The younger I die, the more cumulative suffering I decrease overall