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[Isangformischa]

I've been suicidal for quite some time, why can't my family come to peace with it even though I have? I don't want to let anyone down but I feel like all I'm doing is failing, I even had a failed attempt. I don't know what to do at this point.

 

[Dystopic_Momento]

Welcome to posting on the board. I lurked for a few weeks before posting, too.

 

[Skyview]

I've been suicidal for quite some time, why can't my family come to peace with it even though I have? I don't want to let anyone down but I feel like all I'm doing is failing, I even had a failed attempt. I don't know what to do at this point.

Does your family love you ?

 

[Carina]

I've been suicidal for quite some time, why can't my family come to peace with it even though I have? I don't want to let anyone down but I feel like all I'm doing is failing, I even had a failed attempt. I don't know what to do at this point.

Generally people (even friends and family) don't ever really find peace with it, it's not even easy for people to support someone who's dieing if they want control over when they die. It's just kind of what happens a lot. Granted there's also frequently not much you can do about it either. Doesn't help people who just can't go on anymore.

It's one reason why many (most likely) don't tell family--we know they'd just try to stop us, or get us committed to a psych ward, or counseling, medicated (more so than we may be already).


Why do you think that all you're doing is failing?


I have a thing where if a person has doubts, hesitations, it's normally good to try and resolve them first. You may find the ctb option might not be needed anymore, or maybe it will just confirm it. Really it all comes down to what you want, and what you want to do. I mention this only as you said you didn't know what to do, so I took that to mean you have questions, or some doubts. Which is fine too.

 

[awfullife]

Welcome fren. It's tough to be alive. You are in good company.

 

[Isangformischa]

Generally people (even friends and family) don't ever really find peace with it, it's not even easy for people to support someone who's dieing if they want control over when they die. It's just kind of what happens a lot. Granted there's also frequently not much you can do about it either. Doesn't help people who just can't go on anymore.

It's one reason why many (most likely) don't tell family--we know they'd just try to stop us, or get us committed to a psych ward, or counseling, medicated (more so than we may be already).


Why do you think that all you're doing is failing?


I have a thing where if a person has doubts, hesitations, it's normally good to try and resolve them first. You may find the ctb option might not be needed anymore, or maybe it will just confirm it. Really it all comes down to what you want, and what you want to do. I mention this only as you said you didn't know what to do, so I took that to mean you have questions, or some doubts. Which is fine too.

I don't knowit just seemslike everything I try fails. I can't keep a job, can barely keep a relationship, I can't keep up with my family who have accomplished a ton and don't like you to forget it

Does your family love you ?

I would hope they do I just don't feel like i can keep up with them, they have accomplished a lot and it seems like I'll never catch up

 

[Moonicide]

Hey, love! Welcome to SS. We are here to listen and support you.

It's hard for families to understand why their loved ones want / or choose to ctb. It means you're loved and cared about, but at the same time they can be selfish by wanting you to stay here for their own comfort and peace of mind. To continue to struggle and suffer, how life gets better, etc. Not saying life can't get better... But you shouldn't live for your loved ones, you have to live for yourself. And if you can't find a reason to live for yourself, then what's the point of living, you know? I hope you find the peace that you seek, where that is in life or in death.

Sending you all of my love and support.